A Biography, low value behaviour

What I know to be true:

Heaven on Earth is made by everyone caring more for each other than for themselves, and, not lying to each other with propaganda that way you've 8 billion people watching your back rather than just your selfish self.

Amazon is creating a world where the slaves are amazon suppliers and the customers slugs. Manna.aero even worse

Jesus is the only one which took responsibility for the Karma of the world most of the rest of us including myself are playing a game of pop goes the weasel with each other verbally not taking responsibility for our own actions and occasionally being locked up.

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Wonderful Japan is the worlds poorest country, Tokyo the worlds poorest city, 3 generations to pay off a cardboard house in Tokyo, fuck that, it's the samurai spirit holding their shit together that saves them, Japan make slaves of Africa,  and teach them, the sexy boys have one twentieth the carbon footprint of the west, let the Smart Africans rule, Congos national debt. only 5 billion, Ireland 260 Billion, Tyson Tarzan rule Africa, take over from Gadaffi, some Africans eat monkeys smarter and funnier than them. Bob Geldof 1984 Live Aid Euthopia happened because the Africans could not even Garden, they ate mud they need to be slaves, they need leadership. Apple Electronics gets burned in a go baby go disco inferno in Ghana by witch doctors who see an Apple logo but no matter how much they burn the crap they can't eat it, it tastes like crap so they eat Monkey Mechanics instead.

Like everywhere corruption is rife in Afirca, people survive and are happy because lifes a game of ball hops, Voodoo Rife Miracles Too.

Africans won't even fry Mosquitoes to eat them so they will get the message not to attack people. If that doesn't give people Malaria, It should act as insect repellent, everyone hates the smell of Death of their species.

A group of Italian Gardeners went to Africa and got twice the yield of Tomatoes they would get at home, when the crop was ripe, Hippos Ate the Tomatoes, when the Italians asked why didn't you tell us the Africans said you didn't ask. And it wouldn't even cross an Africans mind to eat them and they would feed 1000.

I've a buddy Conan Bambi Bear the Barbarian who ate Bambi, didn't see a blessed thing wrong with it, knew I was judging him when he showed me the photo proudly in the pub that was murder but one has to eat, I prefer Mc Chicken and chickens laugh if you tickle them under the arm.

 and he loves fox burgers and brews his own whiskey a skill he learnt from Irish Distillers, and because the whiskey he makes is only distilled once was attacked by 5 men in Mallow and he levelleled the whole fucking lot of em the sweetheart.

Rats made flutes of the pneumatic pipes in our milking parlour, to remind my cousin to play music to the Cows, he doesn't believe and he could noodle out a loony tune like the chieftains if he tried.

They also attacked a Murphys drinker by the throat, appear running over whiskey drinkers getting DT's, leave drink bottles out they come and pee in them to make you sick, they are messengers from God.

They also killed Ollie White in Mallow gave him Gangerine in the leg for not keeping his house clean as a tenant. A man who saw the Virgin Mary she told him not to go to church a madman allegedly. An intelligent gurrier, legally blind, yet was as good on a computer as myself. A man I should have looked after, a man who should have looked after himself, brother sees imaginary people, claims Padre Pio put a demon in his stomach for safe keeping. The reason I beleive the Virgin Mary told Oliie don't go to church is the book of Deuteronomy says if you've a bastard in the family going back 10 generations, 1024 relatives your not allowed in church. I'd say the last man that fit that bill was Padre Pio, schools out for summer. 

Beware the man of one Book, this includes the Bible.

I might sound proud of my sins, I'm not but it's who I am, and God might get bored of the soap opera, the best show in town,  if I behaved too nice, so I'm a cowboy.

From my understanding at watching Sid Roth It's Supernatural YouTube, and reading the Bible. I believe the Throne of God to be a Toilet, Thunder of love coming out his backside, chi energy powering the multiverse, streets of Heaven carrying the power God his poo, river of life beautiful to swim in his piddle it makes makes sense it's the exact same for us, shit is gold ask any farmer. You die when you look at the face of God the Father because you know he is under pressure.

Lake Victoria Should have a network of Milk Trucks carrying water into the Sahara.

Could Biodynamics BD500 and BD501 get grass to grow in the Sahara?

Moringa Seed pulped up cleans water.

 A guy called Innocent pretending to be a Nigerian Orphange online tried to pluck me, pretending to be Rick Warren of Saddleback Church, Innocent suppose it was a mothers hope giving him that name, I spend 6 hours trying to get him to praise Jesus for money, he wouldn't or see he was doing a blessed thing wrong. And a Nigerian local preacher wouldn't let me put the correct address on the website the Bananaman. Bananas that's all the Afircan ladies think about... Bananas.

As a person I seem to be a control freak.

The difference between a poor man and a rich man is the ability to rent a Bentley, wear a suit, throw big parties in Rented houses in exotic inexpensive places, bullshit with confidence, be a bullshit artist, have some sort of adabptable plan, be able to sell it, know human nature, be persistent sometimes it takes 20 years to succeed, Rome wasn't built in a day, I usually can only stick with something for a year, I'm a cowboy and like the lifestyle, borrow money from the bank to pay employees, don't drink, addictions are poisons. Dan Lok, Donald Trump was 3 times bankrupt. I've hard working friends who would drink 99% of their wages yet won't borrow to buy a car,

Errata: I said in my last book that a character called Denis liked children like Michael Jackson does, he is a saint who was psychologically attacked by imagery of child sex, the saint edited the grammar in my last book for free, and has since committed suicide, Rest In Peace Denis.

I got a beauty spot on my big fat lip from God, like my grandfather Edward Coleman who smoked I think and went a lot to the greyhound track in Limerick, for talking Dirty.

Ladies and boys who say never hit a lady are cowards of a legal ilk, I nearly always lose but I have fun, I was close to blows with my sibling sister at 7 a year younger than me and backed off the rough and tumble when the talking got heated and I realized she was tough enough to take a fall off a horse and I wasn't, I also got pummeled by an Audrey Hephburn lookalike a professional ballerina style fighter in https://www.ukd-stuttgart.de and it was better than sex, this was after a brown belt in karate refused to defend himself and sulked that I was bopping him on the nose, the ballerina saw me as a bully, and levelled me psychologically, I also at 7 asked my father to defend me from bullies in glantane who were just GAA boys having fun boys my own age, and me firing my catapult at boys the week before like Gladiator at Liscarroll races in the bunkers,  give this turkey a fight ladies I'm itching for it. 

I also got levelled by a smaller young fella in secondary school Richard an utter gentleman who could give life lessons to a a bully and he fought fair. I also got extremely hurt when a woman would not accept my advances, and went stone cold chicken shit turkey in the local pub when she sent her brother up to shit test me the female assasins creed type and a sweetheart at 14, until I refused to pick up her tennis ball, zero tolerance, I hope you enjoyed the French Champagne.

 I also went stone cold chickenshit when a local garda gave out to me for my silly fucked up love letter to a woman which I started with the words I'm a wanker and finished with your a slut, I wouldn't even maintain frame control saying she is a fucking slut during the D.J. the turkey character assination, I was ball hopped for years in Mollies Bar till I got used to it and bit back. Imagine the balls of pure steel a character like Leo Verankar the Gay Pro Choice but otherwise quite an agreeable turnip has, or Donald Trump. People even hate being talked about in books.

 I chicken out of fights too.

Unless ye female high value loyar cowards types can come up with a bloody good reason leave this turkey argument at don't hit a woman in the stomach when she is pregnant. A lot of women can take me and the few that can't need to train.

Life is all about surviving rough and tumble and getting on with it, I need exercise, I consider myself overweight, I drink beer, we learn each others characters by fighting it's a psyche test not wishing our problems away by a few scared words of even lies women like the pathetic mans hero Harry Potter. The bravest man after Jesus was Job in the bible, the ordinary mans hero, the non whinger when lifes shit happened, he kept praising God. 

The reason Harry Potter is admired is he is the kind of guy you'd like as a older brother at 3, and most turnips know they are braver than him, going through lifes difficulties and being bullied and cock blocked and kicked in the balls without magic powers, including the few Harry Potter dancers at a recent festival, move more confidently than that Walter who originally acted as Harry, it's a lovely story for 3 year olds to fire their imagination, but this was better. Irelands answer to The Space Shuttle with Mr Crow and Sneaky Snake.

 

I've been suicidal several times as a rich first world psychiatric patient, grumpy because I didn't make a baby with a 28 out of 10 at the time not having the character development to look after, I wanted my dodi, which is why the world ganged up on me to throw me into the psychiatric system for 17 years.

 I made great friends for life in a free hotel called St. Stephens Psychiatric Hospital and was thrown in again for visiting a friend with books in that Hotel California, also Mike Tyson loved prison but is tougher than me I think. I've a female cousin champion weightlifter in Ireland.

Now lets watch my kind of Lady Katie Taylor spar with a few men.

I've also seen T.V. presenter jokers pummeled by Katie, Irelands answer to Xena Warrior Princess, I'd love a scrap but am chicken shit, maybe the female Boxer in Kanturk.

If I'd my way..., and God did..., the Women would be breastfeeding men in Catholic Church to prevent rape, you ladies know life is too complex for men out here and we all want to climb back into the womb to avoid nagging wives like ye, all we want is the tit free food better than Guinness and healthier too and it's spolit milk if ye get Mastitis, bring out the titties ladies..., you know its the right thing to do..., ask Ronald Mc Donald Trump here he is Giving the State of the Nation Speech.

And here is her Magestys Secret Service, I love the Queen, she left Ireland alone for 70 years and some of England is slightly over populated, why would anyone live in London, it's even more expensive than Dublin and your drinking another mans piddle like all cities, I'm in the country, getting great education of FaceBook groups and YouTube, The Queen wass a Land Rover Mechanic during the war and still is, and a hot lady in her day, why shouldn't have her fun, and the son too, fuck not a blessed thing would be said if she was 12 years old and liked his wavin, like great balls of fire himself. 

The only thing that made Prince Philip shagging a 17.9 year old woman a scandal was she wasn't young enough, and I'm a nipple man myself, In Japan you can shag a 13 year old and if the child likes it you can get some more. Admittedly shagging an undeveloped body is a bad idea, but if they get Married and have a happily ever after great.

She died on the Virgin Marys birthday and I thought of using Virgin Mary Miracolous Medals & Souvenirs as an alternative to money, love is the best currency however.

Also it's 21st annversary of September 11th bombing today 3 times 7 years both biblical numbers. I think internet swapping will be more popular in future.

She Respectable Freddie Mercury out of Queen is rumored to keep his singing voice used get homeless men the fight and shag the happy winner up the shitter and get shagged himself too to hit the high notes. 

 Denny Barrow my other grandfather with his Big Ears, Pipe, Mick McQuaid Tobacco

& Silvermints he used suck and give me at 5 badmouthing my mother, he won the politics with the bribe only a dirty cunt of a grandson would accept a Denis the Menace, as a result of the early influence I did not get on with my mother the fucking saint, Optrex , and a breast pump in the room, a device to prevent females getting mastitis and Whiskey bottles under the bed, we thought he was dying once, we call the priest and family for last rights, nearly like Fr. Jack we found the empty Whiskey bottle under the bed. and was mistaken for his brother during the war of Independence was put in prison for 6 months in a lice infested cell, a hard man, an unsinkable ball hopper, made a saint of my innocent mother by pulling a wardrobe down on himself at 80 and blaming her, a cute whore, when he was going senile He looked at the picture of Jesus and the 12 apostles and said that was a beautiful herd of Cows. Nearly as senile as father Jack, walked everyday a Mile and a half down to Caseys where is Wife Nana lived, my only memory of her is bellowing out the window at Tom, he walked till the End lived till 92 on a diet of eggs and toast for breakfast, and bacon and cabbage for dinner nothing else. A case study for the modern doctor.

My father hunting till 69 falling off horses and swimming under them in 10 feet deep rivers and dead from at 74 from Warfin rat poison a recommendation from a stupid doctor, pure witchcraft, whiskey is better, my father poisoned a lot of rats on the farm they got their revenge after the Warfin and knock from a horse combo at a fair up the country killed him of a brain haemorrage. My advice to you is stay away from doctors, there usually in it for the money, bad mechanics who swotted at school.

Doctors please watch, by regular check up your causing... Collapse of the wave function

By observing your collapsing the wave function of the Health of the patient, a quantum mechanical fact, making it a reality, to your Hypocondriac patients you are plucking, the best doctor uses the least medicine, giving them bad medicine with side effects, practically all medicine has side effects, I've a friend whose father was fit at 40 was an old man by 50 from shopping bags of bad medicine which killed him. Either they haven't a clue or don't wish the best for patients, they are not observing the hypocratic oath, a doctor hadn't the balls to give me advice at a family do in case he was sued, I always give computer advice to anyone who will listen for free, good advice, I love talking and the love sound of my own voice. It took doctors 30 years to realize that X-Raying babies in the womb killed them, collapse of the wave function.

My Grandfather a milder man than Saddam Hussein who made great memories the best, a completely neccessary ingredient in keeping Mom married pinning her, dad partied a bit, mam did too but went for tea and Mariettas. 

All grandfathers should be like him, as cute a blaggard, as cute as the non drinking blaggards of Matriarchs in my family, whom you'd think butter wouldn't melt in their mouth who got me thrown into psychiatric hospital a few times as a ball hop to keep me a fucking virgin at 53, they don't want a man thinking of sex, at least not Elvis or Monkey Keeffe  the only one the Matriarch would give a lift to, so she'd get the ride, and Monkey didn't proposition her, because she didn't say he was a better singer than Bon Jovi which he is, I organised travelsmart.ie a carpool website and the Matriarch said up yours to carpooling I was fucking hopping my years work down the drain, down the drain because of a jealous Matriarchs shit test and she knew I wasn't getting much encouragement in my attempt to out google google. The Matriarch is now paying 300k euro a year for Diesel for her trucks, the world might be running out of fuel for future Generations does trips to Donegal for better cattle prices but won't try to organize a butcher shop closer to home in case she leaves Diesel for future generations the hard working bozo, but genius in other ways. The brother spends 9 grand a year on vaccines, brainwashed by Farmers Journal advertising to swing off cows necks wrestling, he thinks he is working his bollocks off, the fucking farmers love it, the first that gulps always loses, and them fucking cows lose, screaming NNoooo, not mooorrre like they do to me singing the national anthem, land of the free and home of the brave, my sister locked me up for this too your mad singing to animals, mad, they fucking love it, and I love singing to a listening audience sher I might get a ride from a Fresian or an Enthuastic Bull might take me up my sexy shitter with haemoorids give me some fucking experience, seeing as the Matriarch and all the other women in the family insisting I stay virgin like old sweet good looking  spinster Alice to make sure they can listen to me whine in old age about not getting any ruminating while they condacendingly listen to the scratched record. 2 grand of vaccines would cover 80% of potential ailments and be more organic, what the market wants, think he'd listen nah, there is no God, their ain't enough food in the world and half the family obese including him.  

One low point in my life was when a soft spoken punisher kicked me hard in the balls for calling him his nickname Julia in St. Colmans College, a soft spoken man who forgot and won't apologise a John Wayne Alpha, a brilliant builder, a refrigeration expert with loads of tonkas old tractors etc. in the yard. My sister said get over it, I was fuming, it was the equivalent to rape, I survived, and possibly could be cured by a woman sucking my Slaty Balls I forgave to the point of helping him with a little building but occasionally pipe up with indignation of not getting an apology from the hard man.

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The women of Ireland will keep their knickers on rather than telling sweet lies about their husbands in divorce court with teary eyed for Judges who only want to ride the whores too, we all play battles in the courts of public opinion and the Beta male always loses to female bullys, if not well advised or implales the Pro Choice Women, some banker type Men, I know one who won't let his hair down like Joe Dolan, he thinks being sexually repressed is holy, it's only unholy if you dump the woman when she gets old or disregard the child, the type of man I was for a while and maybe still am, lust is fantasy, marriage reaility and imprefect, hard work, with ungreatful for being born children some of the time, like I was, these men are Anti Choice but never babysat in their lives in case the got poo on their suits, or even held a bottle to a babies mouth, even I haven't, I wasn't interested till recently, too short a fuse, men who don't like women playing with their Hairy Chest in Lisdoonvarna, Catholic Altar Boy types that keep their crotch covered. that said I and most nerds don't get seduced by kids till they can beat them at cards, I'm gradually turning into more of a doter capable of breast feeding and changing nappies, thanks to miling cows, but I have hit thirsty calves going for my middle teat rather than the bottle, and most sexually repressed farmers know calves would give an unreal blowjob for protein, looking after children is something that every man insisting on pro choice should do..., BabySitting. I learned an important thing today off a buddy in Nadd, gradually introducing peanuts into a diet when a child is young prevents peanut allergies later.

I lost a lot of Herbs travelling through life as friends, Athiests, a polite name for AntiChrists, who didn't believe I could have a bad hair day from not getting any, program more you fucking nerd ,your good at fuck all else, why the fuck do you think you'd be good in bed, and why would any woman want your woody woodpecker your An Ugly Duckling, go away and play with yourself in a jacks cubicle, watching the flashlight lazer light show up Octurnos arse on sex.com , most nerds get this, story of my life. 

The tradition in Catholic Church of men covering their crotch isn't Holy, it's Fr. Ted men trying to hide their boner...., because, there is a sexy female bum in front of them, and God laughs at you too, sher God is such a  Holy Joe we made a foreskin covenant with the Jews, Give us your foreskins you Muck Savages, it prevents sexually transmitted diseases were his words I think, a holy God with holy hands the one no one understands. I was laughed out of Voice of Truth a local Nigerian church in Cork for doing it and not dancing to God with confidence.

Kids Harry Potter is not Brave, Jesus who died on the Cross for our sins was, Harry can wish his problems away with a few scared words if he can remember them, he has loads of friends the help him with bullies, if his pretty girlfriend said she was better than him rather than really special like all women do when shit testing men and checking their spine, he would cry, and not recover it took me till 52 to recover after watching 300 hours Jordan Peterson YouTube doing self psychoanalysis.

 My innocent saintly mother never told me about the shit test concept even if I did the same to women a few times too without self reflection and they could not handle it either, the vain insecure turnips.

God laughs at Catholic Priests too Father Ted is how he views them clowns, I'm not a Holy Joe or Bible Basher, I was though for a while thinking it was the right thing to do, one should not judge others, one should judge oneself, if I was calm and had maturity a hard working nature, and restraint and played the political game, I would be a Jordan Peterson type, I'm a God Fearing sinner because I'm a Psychiatric Patient who had religious experience trained up by life experiences that not many have and studying psychology on YouTube especially my own, and now consider myself a novice Christian Shaman.
  Please watch this for the love of God watch the stuff below,I believe it's as close as proof of Jesus dying on the cross for your sins as can be reasonably expect for now, or by far the best acting I've ever seen, and I doubt its acting. This is the bravery of Jesus.

Even more evidence. but I can't show you this just trust me to tell you a bit of my stoty, please just believe, if you want people who have seen much more visit https://www.iands.org I'm certainly not top of the pops when it comes to spiritual experiences, people who have had near death ones experience more ,but they are contradictory, some reincarnation, some Judgment, some life is a joke, I'm just willing to talk about my own few of which some are Christian, and imply judgemnent.

I after showing a agnostic buddy this video in Brussels who said "don't show me this shit" I got an examination of conscience from God. I felt what it was like to be an apostle witnessing Jesus dying on the cross Jesus's character reference, it was horrible the Apostles were terrified of Revenge of God The Father yet he forgave, I give away my iPhone, shoes and decided to live on the Streets, asking for forgiveness for 6 months, because of the feelings that were not of me that, washed over me, how could they be, I'm a self absorbed stone like most other people unfortunately, thanks Policemen of Brussels who carried me into psychiatric hospital for my 40th birthday because of this, and heard out of tune Angels singing David O'Connor. a buddy I met 5 years later, a kind of Hindu believeing Christian who practices Byron Katie YouTube technique which is important for forgiving others who might see what happened differently.

Don't get cognitive dissonance and dismiss it, 

which you refuse to watch because it makes you squeamish more Squeamish than the worlds most pathetic Hero Harry Fucking Potter the polite wimp, don't be a coward, why should cowards go to a good place why? because they did jack shit to deserve it and want to?, as an athiest even Richard Dawkins the God Delusion writer is scared of haunted houses he has cognitive dissonance on his athiesm.

The only reason man thinks he is top of the pops is cos God lied to him, do you think your average Joe has a hope against this Animal in a fair fight.

Warning: most of the rest of this blog entry is X-Rated and makes sex.com look innocent if your easily offended a lady or a child under 18 don't read a blessed bit more, but please come back after you hit 18.

I'm basically the Nerd version of this Animal Errol Flynn, Robin Hood Robin Hood Riding through the Glen who Rode Female New Guinea Cannibals, and fought theer husbands, with a rough and tumble kick em in the nuts to get away, because they were a good shag, a man who procreated as God intended, while I self sabotaged, who would blame him, his book My wicked ways is an excellent read, an honest smart man, a renegade who died a Bible believer unlike Mother Teresa who died an Athiest, she used dirty needles without boiling them and got fed up of acting doctors to help patients, she wasn't perfect nobody is. 

It's not about how you start it's about how you finish. The kind of Guy Jesus would hang out with, Jesus hated hypocrites, the type that allowed paedophilia in the Church. The kind that gave the famous words Young People Of Ireland I love you a whole new meaning because the coward would not witchhunt paedophiles rather than than Pope Francis a Fr. Ted. in a uniform a Bozo who Catholics think they should emulate who said Jesus is a Metaphor, he never existed An AntiChrist. Sinead O'Connor like Mary Magadalin is a fairly brave Saint made a lot of shit,and took a lot of shit, she Judged and will be Judged to her own standards, the bad pope predicted by Saint Malachy is in trouble but was neccessary for Gods Drama and may make Heaven too we all might, it's a Roller Coaster of Reincarnation, do we get bored in Heaven, lack of challenge, I don't know.

I'm gradually trying to bring down the tone as my temper settles, please forgive insults, and passions flying, I'm worse than Borat at least he is genuinely funny and, it takes me time to even my temper, I'm angry at life, but lifes getting better at the moment thanks be to God and I'm getting more respect in some circles and losing it in others. I hope this blog entry is an education to you all.

Athiest can be regarded as a polite name for AntiChrist, did you hear what Jesus did on the cross?, do you care?, you Harry Potter woshippers, Harry would break down like I did so often like all simps do, if any woman said he wasn't good enough.

Harry couldn't handle the ballhop, like me when younger, I was sure women meant it, and, they were right, I was ill mannered, sher I piddled into the Suitcase as a child under the bed, my Mother didn't complain, I got away with it, she probably liked the smell of a naughty child, it was a memory and mam was very centimental, but she worked her butt of to keep up with her sister a tidy woman when she visited, to clean a large old house that collected dust like anything.

I thought Darkie our cat that was the piss pot place, the Litter Tray, shit there under my bed Darkie!,,,, just like I did..., I had the clever cat trained and I didn't realize it, I was too fucking dumb, I trained it with my own bad habits.., my awful habits I was embarrased about but did anyway... she nobody could smell the Stench of the fucking stupid childs toilet, I could not handle it, I was furious..., I was hooping..., that was my pissing place you fucking cat!. 

I threw Darkie somersaulting from the top of the Stairs, over and over, every time it misbehaved, 6 turns down the to the bottom of the stairs to barely survive, I was a Muck Savage, a Gurrier, my Mother didn't like me in ways but never complained she bit her tougue, Mr Pretty Sister either my Sibling rival for the parents affections and the charmer was winning hands down the family star and I was hopping. Sorry Darkie you were a great Cat, Margos Cat, and me a cruel little Gurrier who didn't understand himself or his impulses, he just had them, let alone animals.

I was a nasty Denis the Menace, an awful dumb child a nerd with a catapult, I always had a catapult, my best was a Barnett Diablo, an animal which could take ones eyes, out and I aimed it at a few faces, thanks be to God I never injured anyone as a cur, with minor imperfections, with which I could reach the roof of  Seanys Shed 100 meters away ballistically, with no insight no self reflection, she was right in my eyes and it hurt like hell, I could not handle the truth.

Your really special Harry..., few woman is continually like that the ones that are are boring in bed and men know it the flatterers, the optimal marriage or friendship is a fight like cats and dogs, where everyone sharpens everybody else up with constructive criticism, seduction, deception, tears, fun, making up in bed, romance, encouragement, ball hops, and insight for each other. It helps if the other person with self reflection and Bryon Katie Forgiveness Technique YouTube, has some idea this is happening, otherwise it ends in sulks and breakups breaking ties, it's all character building and we all lose a few good friends who thought life lessons along the way.

Women expect the average Joe to behave politely and perfectly for ages at least till the shag then men have the upper hand if the woman climaxes and bonds, Alpha Fucks Beta Bucks, I've one lady a potential girlfriend at the time who I was polite to for a year, a perfect gentleman who could not handle being called out for dating 50 men and me at the same time, or me admitting I had low value faults impolitely in a letter, I even introduced her to a polite gentleman, she never forgave neither did her brother, they are mentally ill too.

No bloody wonder they haven't grown up and unable to believe they Sin or need a saviour like I do but I only do because I had religious experiences where Jesus showed up and put me in a type of life purgatory called the psychiatric system after trying to marry a stripper make a baby and divorce life plan, no wonder God decided to put me in the psychiatric system, it was the logical thing for him to do.

Your really brave Harry Potter types wish your problem away with a few carefully chosen polite magic words like lies non believers in the roller coaster, which life is, non believers in Hell the bottom of the roller coaster which one logically gets stuck in if one has all bad characteristics and curse the likes of Jesu.s

Not even believing in slow crucifictions of people which happen over and over, the why me? syndrome, when they develop cancer and die, wish your problems away with a few magic words your cowards.

She had her qualities a biker, a masseuse, a gentle woman, a good looking woman with modest biker style and a gynmnast who never showed off..., to make D.J. go pop, and no doubt a great shag, but I got none and was quite sexually frustrated as the boy next door.

 I lost her in my own head the day I invited her to my house, anger rose in me, thinking you don't belong here slut, thinking it would end in divorce, because she had 50 other men on the go, I knew strippers with less customers, it was a deal breaker, me a very naughty Irish Catholic Altar boy, now middle aged, she basically a nature worshipper, into free love and fair enough, if I could handle her having kids with a few fathers it be a happy ever after if she wanted it, but neither of us could handle the ball hops we were giving each other.

I wasn't ready, he might not never recover he'd be too dumb to watch Jordan because like Germans who do near perfect Engineering, but not perfect socialising, they don't share problems, the bottle them up, hide them, as a needy woman I most certainly don't, he thinks he is perfect and doesn't need psychoanalysis or the odd ball hop to make character, I personally throw stones at Glass Houses for people to develop character, constructive criticism, being corporate types and not considering me an equal none of my ex bosses could take it so I've no few good references, maybe I'm deluding myself but I think I'm better than most of them .... Managers at 53 who needs them, I know enough, maybe like the boys and girls in Mollies Bar, I should try ball hopping some more.

 The women that most interest me are psychopathic assasins creed types, the type that can keep this simp on his toes, like Steve Jobs could do puppeteering the nerds in Apple,they shit test all the fucking time like I test them, even if I don't realize that is what I'm doing, let the women blow shit up your arse, because the muppet has no fucking spine whatsoever.

 The adult athiest cowards hero. the one they can match a hero because he has a scratch on his face a true fucking Rambo, say a few magic words Stephen Fry in fear to make problems go away talk to the bank to borrow more money, I wrote you a letter Stephen you did not answer, Celebrities, you Antichrist cowards who won't waste your money to fix the Childs Eye with a minor operation that you complain is all Gods Fault.

We are supposed to sort out a few problems ourselves you Athiest muppets on Earth it's a Challenge and fortune favours the brave not the coward as you muppets would like including me when things are against me, I want it my way and I want it now because I'm Mr Vain, I want it my way and I want it now I want it my way because I'm insane, I wanted to fuck all round me at 35 and not have a blessed bit of responsibility raising the children because I could not even think far enough ahead to realize the consequences of my actions affect generations to come like everybody elses into eternity.

If loving thoughts are made wishing well for others it's called prayer, and God sometimes answers, he knows whats best, and sometimes its sending a dying soul onto the next life, but it's very hard to love enough I got the odour of scanctity in a prayer once, it emotionally drained me, but God answered.

 It's way easier to get miracles in the physical, see Eyes for India or Operation Smile Doctors, Padre Pio could do it 24/7.

When hate fills you misfortune Happens others, it takes time, I've seen it, over and over, but Voodoo instantaneous,  I've done it, Presidential Harry Potters witches  like Obama drop the bomb, kill Saddam, kill Bin Laden, another magician that women like J.K. Rowling and Michelle adores Oh He's as brave as Harry and wears a sharp suit, a magician with the 50 shades of Grey Smell, at least I had the X-Men and Wolverne before Jesus and the Catholic Church did all in its fucking power to Bore us all that he worse than Harry and too dumb to fight to live, he had responsibilities for us, a contract with God the father, sweated blood in the Garden of Geseneme, he shiited himself, yet he died and went to hell to pay our Karmic debt.

God had a foreskin Covenant with the Jews to prevent AIDS, and other sexually transmitted diseases, because God knew us Muck Savages loved burying it, the Bible makes sense the important bits, it's a history book and God Threatens because he is in touch with his feelings, things happen anyway, sometimes he lets the universe run on autopilot, we complain when he interferes, we complain when he doesn't, what is a God to do.

The tone of this page is in orbit as a swearword and witchhunt the bitches garden, and, full on anti Pro Choice Turkey Female Clucker Fuckers this country is now infested with as a high value female plastic population, whom I want to get to settle down, with myself a ex drunken nerd simp stripper addict, to good traditional value and have the values of my Mother, like the Waltons, if thats not too boring, we can continue to be idiots or grow up and I'm 53. 

 Nobody wants to believe he may be a bad part of the body of Christ that might be thrown away like a diseased peice of gangerine, a bad egg, in the Cosmic Consciousness of God, ones journey to the good place may depend on you amending your ways and with as many scares as I've had as a Christian Shaman I'm still seriously lacking, if this isn't some sad fairy entertaining himself making scary things for people to watch, the question is can we be better, my mother saw jack shit supernaturally and she left me for dead as a good person who lived a responsible purpose driven life caring for others, and I sometimes hated her while she was alive, I'm a shit who misses the mark every time things aren't easy, how about you? Do you think it was easy going to the cross for Jesus, do you care, most people write this examination of conscience off, I certainly did, did you vote pro choice because it sounds like a nice thing to murder those who done no wrong?, do you love and look after those less fortunate than youself, outside of your own family, can you do better? do you cheer people up?, do you smile?, do you wish people well?, do you encourage?, or do you bully?, do you give gratitude to God and Jesus

If you say Jesus never died for your sins then explain away this video after watching it all a few times, why would someone experience the pain of it if it wasn't important Jesus did even whores better than most modern Irish Ladies Got Stoned, discipline is Good, keep your eyes on the road and your hands upon the wheel, othewise it might be the bad place for us, which is why Saint Sinead O'Connor Turned Islamic it's strict after advertising the paedos in the Catholic Church, so she would have to keep her knickers on and be a good girl and wife like women were only 50 years ago in Ireland, she knows she is a Pup too and needs to be scared into being a good girl, even my mother was a saint largely because my Grandfather pulled the wardrobe down on himself blamed her, and cornered her in a family political dynamic into being a slave saint, otherwise it might have been divorce court due to my father after marriage drinking quite a bit and partying, but working fairly hard too, as nice as she was, we all have to corner each other into being the best versions of ourselves, which is why I spent 17 years in and out of psychiatric hospital, I was a fucker who deserved it for being an immoral cunt.

 Even my pretty sister who is at least as nice as me as a person my sibling rival, who was vegetarian, which I wasn't, and never was, can't see a blessed thing wrong with murdering unborn babies, and starts crying in indignation when I point out it's fucking wrong, what the fuck gives ladies? 

Please explain yourselves and stop crying because your being judged it's manipulation, I know it is, is my moral compass somehow is a backward Biblically wrong reality, is morality a fashion changing with the seasons?, is murder a good thing to do???

My sob story, most have a sob story, and self sabotage for the roller coaster ride, the learning curve doesn't exist without the roller coaster ride, which is why most Catholic priests are thick cunts, including the Jesus is a metaphor procliaiming anti Christ Jesuit pope, even Putin locked behind bars in the Kremlin his own prison, with escape hatches, secret passages, alliances with Iran, and trap doors, 007 long table protection mechanisms against being shot,to save his arse from assination, which saved his Judo Fighting Orthodox Christian arse 4 times so far.

 Putin a man with cancer, who can impose his viewpoint intimidatingly, usually winning arguments, going to the limit without lying, a man who got a stipper to piddle her hair restorer on Donald Trumps hair it got pulicity and Donald probably loved it, because it upped the ante for his wife, whom he is happily married to, in bed, and he would get better service off her nothing like competition between women to get fun in bed and Donald is smart enough to know it, that's why he talks about pussy leaking it so His Mrs Universes can hear.

Putin at 70 fighting fit, way fitter than me at 53, swimming 3 hours a day, trying to remake the Napoleon Story in History, bombing Chernobyl for fun a joke designed by Vodka Fuelled Engineering Homer Simpsons like me.

Like Homer by 30 my code sometimes wasn't that great in IBM after my drunken nights out, and occasionally rewritten, I got duped by him politically into writing stupid unneccessary 32-64 bit dual architecture strace, and herewrote my beautiful chandev with it's recursive locks but maybe needed a bugfix it was beautiful, now even in user level pthreads as an accepted coding paradigm, him complaining about my backtrace sniffing code in the gdb debugger because it was useful to hackers for debugging code without symbols and the fucking hacker using softice on windows to write quite a bit of wine the windows emulator for linux winehq,org, he was a political animal who didn't like a nearly as good Homer Simpson  a vain but tighter Engineer a fucking Binar a fucking edjit like autistic genius Paul Dirac and other Germans worshipped the Binars brilliance but do you think they would help him find a woman to pound the vent some repressed sexual frustration not a hope.

The Binar could do things I could not.., like the great SPU Glibc calls for Playstation 3 Linux, a fucking masterpiece, this turkey balked when asked to write it, I wasn't capable of staying sober enough, I had women to chase..., strippers to make pregnant, I was now 35 and going impotent, great code 100000 lines that was obselete by progress in 2 years of computer architecture Open CL for GPU's came along and more Engineering Turkeys, I hate it when good code gets thrown away, I want my code to last an eterneity, like Euclids or Dyjkstras algorithm. 

The Symmetric Multiprocessing Architecture of the S/390 is the very best with Absolute memory and the SIGP instruction, this 30 pages in the S/390 principles of operation should be in every processor architecture and operating system textbook in the world. Better than GPU's and more versatile, Nyvidia and other videocard making boys you've thrown a spanner in the works going GPU and OpenCL, kludging a half arsed processor to do a CPU's workload Just because your silicon boys could put 100 of them together in one very awkward to program bitching Compute Block, because S/390 SMP is better simpler and more versatile.

The Binar didn't like my loose use of English because the twerp was a bit autistic and could not see what I was getting at with fuzzy logic English, and never drank, he never had to talk to a pissed man in IBM Boeblingen, because he didn't ever need dutch courage because the computers were sexier to the nerd than my macabu.de and winks strippers, most likely had even less luck with the ladies than me, and nobody cared, not even him, because he was a great coder that managers could take credit for his work and pull the ladies for themselves. Why should nerds get the women they are intelletual cannon fodder. 

Putin a KGB president, 00Vlad Rasputin, a vandal like me, I broke all the windows in a local cottage now perfectly restored, who left his Gurriers off to play Space Invaders in the Crimea with boys toys, keeping old women fit running away rather than dying of boredom in bed, the God Shiva the God of Destructions purpose like war, is to tear down mountains to make sand for the sea shore, who were even worse, it's like the North, Gerry Adams vs Orangmen mentality, Russia Vs Ukraine, Titanium reserves and Russias Breadbasket, no wonder Putin and Russia want the best land in the Area. There are people in Russia living in the coldest most inhospitable climates in the World, even Moscow inpenetrible to Napoleon and Hitler attacking in the place, the place swamped of cold wet shit that even immobilised tanks and armies starved twice at the gates in 200 years, the biggest city and not the worst climate in Russia and you need to be an animal to survive, as fucking hard as nails, only the toughest survive in Russia, and everybody knows it you need to be nearly as mad as Stalin, with an army of chess playing Cronies to be top dog read the Gualag Archepeligo one of the worlds scariest books about how bad asses get to be top dog playing life chess, one man in the book clapped Stalin for 8 minutes and fell exausted due to intimation at the politburo and got 20 years in a Siberian concentration camp, because he went into the Politburo didn't belong and Stalin knew he was basically a twerp coward being nosy, and there are many other stories I didn't get to read but I was getting the vibe. Russians play chess, China Go and read the art of way, Donald Trump Monopoly with Mickey Mouse and Mrs Universes, world politics can be figured out from the mindset games of domination risk and some card games too, 

Texas Hold Em, I know what you think, what you think what I think your thinking, I got with dark glasses so you can't see the fear in the opponents eyes, a great tactic with the women.

My plesant, saved my sorry arse a few times with legal west brit letters that said to the taxmans money hunting solicitor in doubletalk politely, this ape who can no longer tie his shoelaces as mad as a hatter and useless and suicidal truth presented politely, a coward a yuppie of Stephen Fry ilk, one who can't handle some of lifes unplesantness, couldn't handle them with Gay Bryne, why should I help my fellow man attitude I'm a rich yuppie celebrity and funny, I even know Linux is good I'm so smart, GNU Linux.

 I'm smarter than the dweebs running Windows even, the clowns who pay, I have no anti virus problems none, problems that we make for each other, who thinks Pro Choice is nice, because the women can fuck Alpha's now and get rid of the baby without losing their figure.

 Women should have to go into the womb with their own Knives and Forks and eat their own babies, do their own butchering,  see their own murders, so they will know they are butchers, avoiding their own unplesantness, who yet can't believe in Jesus, he's like Stephen a bipolar yuppie one of ours so let him off the hook, happily married gardening accountant uncle hates who listens to the bbc media horsehit about covid thought it would kill him and survived it without a scratch hatesd me showing up at the door me wearing full of shit sunglasses visiting and acting full of crap for that reason he no longer could see through this goldfish. 

Putin with his gymnast lover who might be in control in Switzerland because she makes him feel like a little boy, I had the 1998 German Rythmic Gymastic Champion with a broken tooth that I intitally wasn't impressed with dance for me, I know the funny places in the head women can put men, with 4 illiegitimate children, and I thought my life was a roller coaster, I'm boring in comparison.

 Why women love bad men, and men love bad women, I sold my farm for a cowboy hat at 5 years old, I told my father I didn't want the responsiblity of being a farmer, and would sell it for toys at 5 I loved tractors, am largely fed up of coding, I now like milking cows, I made a mistake or maybe I didn't I learned more, because I was a nerd and visited a scam pick pocket infested city Brussels for education, and went to scammy pretty Strippers on the back streets of Stuttgart, In Brussel you need 300 euro a day to live in and can't buy shit it's too tightly packed for cars, most won't do the hard work, the road to riches is usually boring for the immature cowboy.

 This is the story of a needy whinger... me, my story is getting good at the moment I'm on a temporary modest high on the roller coaster until I get sued or politically ostracised for insulting people in this blog entry as happened in my book The Nerds Survival Guide, and I insulted a nice man who has since died, and I lost the latex file and can't edit it easily, books don't make you popular with those you reveal secrets of in public, but people talk behind each others backs and hang politicians all the Time, Donald Trump monopolyman is nice greedy, Americans are about money, land of opportunity, non Drinker, at least is married, Christian Valued, A bullshit artist, but nice, thats American values, what do you expect America, He is America, like Mickey Mouse, yet gets insulted for being American all the bloody time, he's a characture, who can take the heat of Presidency, take a little heat from me if you all expect an airbrush painting of yourselves and flattery, you'll be very disappointed, if you think the few people reading this blog will influence your life, imagine the heat you would get my first friend as President Donald Turmp my love hater, because thats what you want, and when my mother talked about you a little at 13 your sensitivities went ballistic, get your reality distortion tyrannical field in order I'm being a total cunt here, because you complained about my sipping tea at 15 a fucking nit picking i never forgot which still haunts me, but your a mockingbird, ball hopper, disrespecter, gossiper, talking behind peoples backs too, and occasionally short changing people taking short cuts you charming cunning boratty funny man before your time, and my mother a saint whom I might have talked to in heaven through nature, now singing Land Of The Free and Home of the Brave, along with U2's streets of no name.

 I got dealt many shit sandwiches of disrespect from many through life and dealt them cards back and still am, I'm inpolite and hurtful, and getting worse nobody is pulling my brakes so I'm bound to hang myself somehow.

The worst insult a pretty woman can give a man is your not good enough for me, a cocky girl said your family is not good enough for us partiallly ballhopping going back to puck fair, but it cut like a knife, I hated it at 7 the first time I felt evil, like Harry Potter I was happy I was good enough until then, my heart hardened against her and the family in ways witchcraft developed in my heart and they got some misfortune, a local girl whose father said I wasn't good enough for her died of a heart attack one month after exercising.

 Everyone is a witch all it takes is hate all a miracle takes is to wish one well, even women need 3 hugs a day to stay sane, thats why they hug each other but won't kiss on the lips as much as i love it and only breast feed babies while men want it too and it prevents mastitis ladies, hate is a far easier emotion than to love to make in bult, I once created what I believe was an odour of scantity with a heart felt prayer, I could do it, but, thought fuck that for working miracles it's easier in the physical where love isn't required, imagine how much people who get miracles like Padre Pio routinely must love, we can probably wish each other into Heaven we could wish for Heaven on Earth now.

 Even Donald Trump gets insulted, everyone has to develop a thick skin, and had many cases where I was locked up in psychiatric hospital for barely making moves on local women, do I have to die a fucking virgin family a lot of my family are cock blockers and pub owners too and Denny Murphy Chasers, I didn't take the vow to become a priest, I might have done something Stupid with My primary School Friend as an Altar Boy but I fucking back tracked when I say a few golden pussys in Stuttgart Strip Clubs, I did at 50 applied for the Job as Catholic Priest to Cloyne Diosese a few times but didn't ask why you ain't hiring me, because this experienced nutter wanted to become a Fucking Fr. Ted, as a new Bible Basher bashing my family I had to show I was taking this Bible Bashing very seriously as I thought there was no other way to get into Heaven after sinning, but Jesus Hated Philistine Priests and would hate pretentious worse than Fr Ted Hypocrites who listen to nobody, are learning nothing, I pointed out what seemed to be a modest miracle, I got a T-Shirt with a friends same saying he was a priest and the year 1975, around the year we were altar boys and he was playing GAA my best friend, did he promise to be a priest that year, I made vows to God and renaged, I renaged recently, not enough cash to pay my car maintence without working somehow to give my money away is my excuse and I could not be arsed to look for a job how seriously does God take vows will I go to Hell, and the local priest buried his head in the sand saying he can't contact anyone related to the miracle because its politically messy the coward and wouldn't believe the evidence I presented, another dickie bird in a suit, like the Nazi psychiatric doctor I'll get into Heaven by denying miracles clown, that's the Catholic Way, Bible bashing from the pulpit, making spirituality boring, because they think thats the way it should be, with God awful singing the worst singer in the local Church is the music conductor he couldn't fuck up the service any other way, lets fuck Church and woship up boys, 

Jesus hung out with slightly gay men and a whore named Mary Magdalin so there is hope for me as I am, being a pervert in oh so many ways, I had to repent somehow. The Catholic Church was I suspect a spy network for Popes in Confession Boxes who were tied in Brother's of Tyrants, The bible says what you forgive is forgiven what you retain is retained, which I think means you must ask the person you wronged to forgive you, when this happens expect a lot of lawsuits, i know my history and designed to make the Bible so fucking boring no sane man would want to Read it, Cathecism Bullshit that contracticts Bible the definition of a mortal sin, I interpreted is you meant the sin, everybody means the fucking sin, thats why its a sin, Rosary a repeditive prayer, the Bible advised against repeditive prayers, Padre Pio practically the only man who got Miracles in Church History because he meant his prayers and meant his masses which were visited by those in Purgatory, well thats what he saw, god knows what is real, are you the readers real, I know a woman who thinks everybody is a beautiful figment of her imagination, a solopotist, the polite twerp a local popular singer more popular than me a psychiatric patient too who has some of my property, Did Heidi Baker raise 1000 Africans from the Dead for Iris Ministries or is the Baker a Faker find out.

I didn't even make nasty moves pulling women just low value ones, lifetime barred from a local clubs for grabbing a womans arse who showed interest when I wanted to make another pretty one jealous, what does a man have to do to bounce the female billiard balls around in the game of social pool, including my first school best friend who realised he was more Alpha in a brawl at 10, and I made a great butt for his mocking jokes, I'm a butt of many peoples jokes, and you are all a butt of mine, lets play social pool and gossip, feel free to comment on this blog, it's for gossip.

 I'll tell the bad bits in a sob tone, to describe what happened, how stupid I was, and how much I learnt,  it will hopefully be an education to the reader, it's full of life lessons,b ut most won't listen because everybody fool loves self sabotaging roller coaster ride lifestyles and to make their own path due to comical lessons not learnt resulting sometimes in a tragic comedy of consequeces.

 I've only one buddy as mad as me, however, I think the family throw my in psychiatric hospital as a ball hop half the time, life is full of ball hops, Johnny a golf nut, he wants nothing but golf and turned down a fine lady once he wanted to see every country in the world first, now locked in a half way house between psychiatirc hospital and normalacy, he doesn't know what he wants, he doesn't need golf addiction, an entertaining Winnie the poo, seduced by seeing the Swedish models at the finish like waiting for Tiger and Jack Nickelson wants the bedhopping lifestyle that the holes in ones, and the famous travelling Wilbury lifestyle and being in the front pages of Golf History books, he can get in the masters, he won't admit it but I know he likes the pretty ladies too what fool doesn't the fantasiser, who basically can't play won't farm because its a shitty responsible lifestyle which might result in him marrying an ordinary cowgirl, and his father has a big one, and works like a dog trying to keep it above water, optimised for grants and losing money.

Johnny can barely play tiddlywinks, Looks Like John F. Kennedy, and if he married the runner of in Mollies Bar Bweeing and took her name would be John Fucking Kennedy. I recommended he goes to Disneyland and offer himself as a play crazy golf with John F, Kennedy for kiddies, His farm is in Ard Prior a name Donald Trump would like High No 1. so I was Suggesting Johnny Play President with Trump and open a Trump Golf course in which might be interpreted High No 1. in Irish and do a mythological Presidential story for himself.

He had a buddy in psychiatric hospital who screamed no I don't want to be fucking president of Ireland, hearing voices is how God gives his wind up's, and I've always thought of my dog barney as president of Irleand

 Johnny became a professional golfer but had farm family commitments, you can just become professional, no test neccessary, which is why John got it, and was embarassed at the pre qualifiers 20 shots behind in the British Open and told to go the fuck home by the organisers, but never gave up on his dream, a story of repressed anger when told he can't play, has psyorisis from Lithium an anti psychotic and stress, and is too embarrased to swim because of it in case people in the pool say sexually transmitted disease, and is psychiatric as befuck as a result, and won't listen to Jordan Peterson YouTube, won't the bloddy retard, got somewhat better when his sister a doctor decided to give him a hug, got 100% in honours maths in secondary school that was no challenge so he didn't choose it as a career, got thrown in hospital for wanting to ride a fairy horse naked to England, whose brother tied a brick to his leg an jumped into a shit tank, but at least not boring, we all want to impress even if by suicide, 

Johnny, the whole family are flaming nutters, one relation screams so much smoking cigarettes Johnny has to wear ear muffs at the table..., hormones, Johnny broke every window in the house firing teacups when he could not get to the golf course,we all are and we all need hugs, pet dog anyone as a psychoanalyst. A sweetheart Winne the Poo, and when it comes to him being really obsitate he turns into Winnie the little shit like me because he wants his honey too, every man does,

 I wish I could be a nice polite man to women, even Godless Polite Obama is doing way better than me, they treat me badly because they are bitches, because I'm not Brad Pitt?, and immature Dutch Courage, an alcoholic Gurrier, Ex Simp, Now Red Pilled, Nerd and neurotic.., thank you, Jordan Peterson YouTube for the 300 hour social sciences look in the mirror and straightening me as much as possible at my age of 53 but I should be working rather than blogging.

I'm a total cunt back to women and expose their equally horrible flaws which I've learn't from the Red Pilled community on YouTube, but could not see in Stuttgart and discos due to rose coloured beer googles, why would I talk politely about Whores, I wish it could be different, 

My father was quite Happily Married and he my mother who wasn't a Whore, she was a saint,

Thanks be to God, maybe I should pray a prayer of thanks, I never pray anymore.

 One that misunderstood me or wished I was different, not a nerd a carer, and my fathers workman made the American Dream for themselves.

 I'm very attracted to pretty women, most Judge a book by its cover unfortunately, mine is judged too, but its the moth to a flame, but hate a lot of the characteristics of the pro choice Alpha Fucks Beta Bucks Hedonist modern woman, we are all letting each other down so badly its unreal men and women it's a war and it's brutal.

My 500k euro nest egg which I could have saved and invested, my 2k worth of shares I could have bought in my employers Apple Computers in 1998 now could be worth 6 million but I thought Steve Jobs was a fool unlike me he largely wasn't as he proved over and over, the money I earned in highly paid programming jobs went to pubs which i converted to pee in discos and deviate at 30 in Stuggart to chasing strippers because nothing was happening with women in pubs, and plucked by investments in a Pub run by a fool, political Roma Gypsy Casanovas & conmen and pretty pick pockets landlords in Brussels for my 40th birthday, schemes buying propery abroad and the taxman the money for my family nest egg, stupid a fool and his money quickly part, and I didn't do the best job I could as a programmer when I was sinking into simpdom and alcoholism either I plucked companies too because I wasn't the best version of myself for the job how could I be, I was in a social abyss of irresponsibility who could see no way out he hadn't the social intelligence, but I learn't a bit from my roller coaster ride. 

The money for my happy ever after that every clown thinks he deserves but doesn't because I never met the golden pussy to marry and I would not accept a woman as imperfect as me, us spoilt first world turkeys we are fools, to my fathers ex workman who took responsiblity, your right not having much respect for me I expected too much, your daughters stopping me volunteering in Nazereth House?, they are as bug a fools as me, they proved it like many other women with their almost equally immature life decisions?, Even Sinead O'Connor went Islamic so she would have to keep her knickers on.

Sex before marriage is wrong in my opinion ask Jordan Peterson YouTube, even a beta pervert like me who shopped around and went quite deviant in other low value ways he is embarrassed about complied to this rule I had minor chances to do otherwise, because he saw that his mother and father were as happily married as could be reasonably expected,

I watched Fred Astaire an Ginger Rodgers have their happily ever after, and thought at 5 that could be me the old fashioned millionaire and the pretty dancer, this was fantasy beyond ideal stupid, marriage takes work and the women get old too, hollywood bullshit, but got gradually got morally corrupted. chasing strippers, when I saw the women didn't love me, because I was simping.

Women love a man with restraint a sweet tongue, but I at the moment make Borat look polite, I blame others for problems,which I'm at least partially responsible for,  and like most immature men, I'm also neurotic.  

I've witchhunted this woman to make an example of foolish women wrongly taking the moral high ground in revenge for getting me locked in psychiatric hospital to admire and flirt with pretty nurses way prettier than this average wanderly wagon, you need to go there too all mentally ill women who voted pro choice need to go to psychiatic hospital, or if we go Islamic and old Christian Valued, for voting pro choice you women could be stoned my the fathers of children they aborted and condemed to death without consent who have done no wrong, Women of Ireland the Magdelene Laundries were not long ago and may come back, if we clowns keep playing your high value cards to men smarter than you you consider betas, maybe a I should back off, but so should you.

 I'm making an example of you to show other women what happens when I'm fucked over too much, and teach you to stop fucking with men you consider low value,  we are not polite dickie birds don't expect politeness when it's not enough and your too up your arse to learn a few home truths about how fucked up Pro Choice is, Like you Pro Choice Butchers, I'm an animal and would eat you up like a Mad New Guinea Cannibal because I've been fucked over by enough women, including my high value sibling rival sister in family politics who shares your values.

 To the pro choice primary school teacher who smelt moral judgement for voting pro choice when I asked her in Drommahane primary school in Early May 2022 how she voted and suggested that their should be a census done on the way reasons people should allow abortion, this was a perfectly reasonable suggestion given to a person who has social standing no politician was listening to me why lock me up for it,  Now for my painting you as I see women of your stature, women like you think they are great because she wears makeup powder and paint to make yourself prettier than me, this is faking it, and still considered high value by men who haven't seen her without makeup and gets still get likes for profile picture updates on Facebook from Simps, dopamine hits, your fucking great for that, and cute little boys who have boners in class smiling at her but don't know why inflating her self worth she has makeup on, little boys she is air brushed her skills to make herself pretty are artistic not genetic, and you don't want to see her not made up, you'd be disappointed at the 32 year old turnip whose hit the wall, but in reality probably has no better genetics than me an old balding fat teeth missing varicose veined nerd ex simp red pilled beta, she might be visiting the psychiatric hospital too if I have my way, swaying the court of public opinion the cunt, for voting pro choice, and, minding other peoples babies, and, wishing the were dead, the morally bankrupt self riteous, I'm better than you ugly old man where is Brad Pitt look on her face, I don't want to look at a low value beta look in her vain eyes, I can get you locked up with political manipulation, and, saying I felt threated,

The Psychatric female old ladies, self riteous Turkeys all psychiatric dickie birds are Turkeys all of them, us patients too, Judging men purely on how politely they can win an argument because they can win if it's polite, it only stays polite if a patient backs to fuck off, and doesn't come to blows which it should the nurses should let it go to blows I would love if it did even with the old turkeys of ladies perscribing drugs which should not exist, because the clowns aren't as good at managing tempraments as my dog because they don't care much about anything except being considered high value, and shown respect, and their wages, I'm a neurotic accept it, Highly paid psychiatric drug dealers in the hospital past their primes, stupid anal retentive narrow minded women and men, expecting me to be polite I wish I could I can't, agreeeing and expecting me to be a polite dumb twerp take my fucking medicine, to make sure I die sooner of side effects, because they regard me as beta and not worthy of continuing my family line because I'm neurotic, because those bad arsed fuckers were deluding themselves they had the moral high ground, they only have political high ground, and big Rugby playing psychiatric Nurses , gaurding them ready to play bully boy if I get out of hand, which I would, and sometimes do.

 Read The Gualag Archepeligo about Stalinist Russia, this is a slightly milder from of that kind of bad behaviour by patients nurses and doctors allowed in psychiatric hospitals in Ireland.

 Another Magdalene Laundry, because the supernatural exists and the Western athiest is too narrow minded to accept it, they lock us up we are outcasts, go to psychiatric hospital scientists, go to Haunted houses, go to voodoo infested Africa, take LSD DMT the spirit molecule, smoke 3 puffs of the new Mexico Toad like Tyson, a few magic mushrooms, open your mind Doctors go mad on them you need to let your hair down you turkeys and get locked up yourselves, the are up mount Hilary nearby for free and there is a Penguin book of Mushrooms in Mallow library that opens straight to the magic mushrom pages.

The doctors..., because they could drug me up so saliva flows out my mouth to make me look mad than I am and show politicans and dumbass videos on YouTube, with their pathetic judgments 1% off on the political arguments or eye contact and your shitzo watch YouTube most of the videos of Schitzoid the people have far less wrong with them to be considered politically sane, than the Nazi DickieBird doctors who keep tables of phrases in their stupid heads that set off their beepers, I've a few friends who wanted to stay in hospital, even a Funny Turkey a cross between what you'd see on Fr. Ted and Robin Williams, he said he was unstable and the doctor wouldn't leave him stay in hospital, the ape set fire to himself in his car, it was so unreal I had suspicions a psychpath buddy set fire to him, it was a no compute even for me an experienced man in naure of the soul. 

These doctors fill the internet with their athiest worldview you drug dealing bullshit artists, don't allow bipolar episodes where people are tuning into Shamanic experiences of heightened awareness thinking disjointed, this is when I'm at my best from an inspirational standpoint with a Wanderly Wagon Worldview, a magical worldview, leaving thoughts to be processed over 6 months when I come back out of orbit. If I'm not causing trouble or not being chased by demons leave me alone, I'm quite happy being a tutti fruitie. But when I lose my keys in the car when they are stolen by fairies, I may need rescuing as annoying as this is for family. 

It was damn annoying when I was singing the National Athhem to herds of cows who are musical and love it and even shout Moooorrrreee, and playing the Supermacs clown showing off my belly button this probably was pushing it down in Limerick doing the fool busking, at least the cows loved it, it made them happy the stupid entertainment because they are musical animals and let down milk faster when the music is on yet the family farm doesn't do it much, and be considered nuts by family because I'm behaving immaturely, people are happiest being fools, you stop being a fool, you have to keep up appearances like psychiatric doctors and worry about what people think.

 I had my keys stolen from my car by family who would not give them back for 3 weeks playing political I ain't got your key games after my uncle called the family KGB on me, when I asked for help, because, I was too immature at the time to spend a few hours looking for my car, fuck I was having a party down near the University Campus where I discovered drink and was reliving the immaturity that caused me to fail my exams and try again in Cork, why the fuck should I look for the car for myself as a cross between singing Joe Dolan at the time and the Supermacs Clown a happy in my nappy, happy enough to be drunk Singing Turkey, I should be working and getting on with my life but am drugged on psychiatry so I've a half arsed excuse not to, nobody with a good plan wants me anyway, but I had to walk 4 miles past Nadd 20 miles away without a car at night walking dark and windy roads which cars travel along at up to 70mph without a flouresent vest, and, that was dangerous family, but I supposed this fat and lazy arse who isn't working needed the exercise and I survived. 

This is how psychiatric doctors win public opinion and show videos of psychiatric hospitals like this, that said some are mad, I certainly was mad barking mad shitting into sinks in hospital in Stuttgart running around hospital after wanking in the sheets naked, the nurses know this behaviour happens they are left cleaning the sheets up by patients, no wonder patients are disrespected, Nora do you get it, we all behave badly..., neurotic, too the nurses disrespect the over sexed hedonists who lived the Sex and the City lifestyle in New York, blabbermouths who can't keep a lid on it, or maintain self control for a reason and we are it, doctors have their reasons for disrespecting us, we are not fitting into society and sexually turbocharged turkeys with no self control, they are our control, the leveler, and, we their nemesis who make them unpopular and hated despite wearing the suit, nobody fools nobody, it's all about balance and if we all were Hedonists it would be Hell too,you have multiple sclerosis there is evidence this is believed to be  sexually transmitted disease according to research, do you really want Herpes too to level up? I know a patient who can give you some. 

I'm disrespected by women aside from being regarded beta because I don't hold my tongue and talk perfect, lack of self control neurotoc, stupid mentally ill low value behaviour and I'm embarrassed but fairly honest I think, I give people the look int the mirror too, a demented pup who could not get his hole the golden pussy.

Like Bobby Sands the ape who rubbed shit on the wall of H Block and considered a hero for bad behaviour, because he killed himself in stupid protest, stupid disrespectful behaviour thats not going to impress the sensibilities of the ladies, like my bad pup behavour, could he have done the Mandela and waited it out got married and have a happy ever after appearing on the Late Late Show as future president of a United Ireland, if he kept his shit together, if the IRA keep their shit together, it was an improbable possibility, but like most clowns like me delayed gratification is not an option.

 I could not hold my thunder as an alcoholic who wanted my hole now at 35, thats what caused my breakdown, I wanted the happy ever after but hadn't proven to good intelligent moral ladies I had the moral fibre to rear children and rare them well my father was fantastic smart savvy funny and mature except when it came to drinking but wasn't a complete clown he largely held it together but he even failed a bit with a brat like me, and he was worth 50 of me and my mother 100, and as a child throwing a tantrum we want our dodi and want it now tantrum for the rest of our lives behaving the fool, that's mental illness for you in a nutshell it's not having the genetics or moral fibre savvy or network of friends to attract the happy ever after, and throwing in the towel in the court of public opinon.

 And other apes who died a man after my own heart at 70 in the local pub doing the same after 14 pints of Stout, and more respected than me because he was charming and a nutter, a lot of clowns have done things like this the doctors and psychiatric nurses are keeping me under control and me them, Earth is a lunatic asylum.

 I was mad, because I wanted my hole, I'm a dog who chases bitches in heat called strippers and I howl and stalk them because I'm addicted to pretty ladies and want to do it like they do on the discovery channel at least think I do and back off when I see the black hole of responsibility, I'm just hyperactive looking for a ideal mate, bad actors in psychiatric hospital electroshock therapy people into oblivion the narrow Nazi minded, there is no supernatural, I refuse to believe despite evidence doctors with power.

 The lipstick powder and paint wearing shit, you ABC,ABC now I know my ABC's teaching dumbo, I could have children soldering and programming raspberry pis at 7 and knowing some physics, I would leave you dead teaching everything but gardening and Irish, the bored out of their boxes ADHD kids would be in the childrens playground with me figthing fit and soldering electronics with their little hands after school repairing stuff I haven't the skill to, playing musical instruments, learning from the likes of 3 blue one brown and mathologer and up and atom from YouTube videos, and even most importantly milking cows for Tom Casey to pay back our Chinese child labourers who unlike our precious turkeys here need food, modest child labour isn't wrong even this lazy turkey milked a few cows and mowed mams lawn but was too fucking lazy at applying himself to keep the good habit up for the awful turkey of a lawn he has outside his house because he is too busy working up the wherewithol at 53 to get good at soldering to fix electronics.

 I think I'm a genius, but I can't even keep up with an 8 year old at making iPhones, they leave me for Dead, I watch Louis Rossmann and Jessa Jones on YouTube and get sexually frustrated and my knickers in a twist because I'm a nerd who can't make of fix his own electronics babies and make robots like the ones I saw on Lost in Space 50 years ago and I know it can be done now, in the Chinese factories where people actually work hard for a living.

 Beer guzzling first world Ireland running up a IOU to Central Bank Lenders, the farmers are the only people in Ireland contributing to GDP, they make food for China, most of the rest of the businesses in Ireland are a money moving joke.

 From what I've seen in Psychiatric Hospital the only ones doing useful work are the ones making and serving food, the rest are making beds which patients should, drugging annoying patients up, and bullying is what goes on there, Irish hospitals are jokes, Cancer Treatment another Joke, don't give a penny to cancer research, they know how to fix a lot of things, there trying to kill you bozos with Big Radiation Cannons and Cheamo at end of life, I know there are 200 types of cancer, why do all the royal family live to 100 and my mother 45, Australian Berries cure one kind of cancer.

Also ragwort a nuicance plant in Ireland which kills cows can cure one type of cancer.

Collecting money for cancer research is a joke, like carbon taxes, carbon footprint concept was made by BP to get the blame off oil companies, the illumaniti, the elite aren't disclosing what they know and Radiation and Chemo seem to be a stupid way to bankrupt Americans without health insurance at end of life, even Steve Jobs refusing cancer treatment smelt a rat, rats who took the hypocratic oath, yet pluck people, rats like himself, who plucked for Apple Computers, the wonderful legally operating puppeteer who knew how to play Nerds Egos to get the unreal, a brilliant man still teaching me lessons, and treated women correctly according to their nature, she even Joan Baez thought she was better than him, he looked after family barely enough, the had life lessons from the best ball hopper on the planet as a father and who wouldn't want that... memories.

Steve Jobs who like his Apple Founding Partner sweetheart Steve Wozniak, Woz initially at least, was a Freemason admitted criminal tendancies himself and may have went Mafia with Apple Secret Police, 007 type Punishers and Chinese Triad types a few times, in China with Foxconn to get his unreal deals done, what American Multinational Corporation hasn't, why do you think America Spends 700 billion a year on Weapons, Petrodollars without gold backing it, the Euro the same,  Bitcoin??? obselete maths calculations worth 65k in 2021 hoping a bigger fool will buy, now using as much electricity as Sweden as if we don't have enoug global warming problems, at least the Dutch Tulip curremcy in the 1700's was pretty,the world is Mafia, Mad Ted Mad, all Cowboys and Indians Ted.

 Starving sugars and carbohydrates helps kill cancer, better can be done, Steve Jobs searched and died of Roundup poisoning I suspect, pancreatic cancer, from the processed fruit drinks he put to his own mouth.

 I'd leave all you lipstick powder and paint turkeys for dead at least teaching little nerds with something to prove, and you you turkey, who allows little ones who have done no wrong to die because Pro Choice sounds nice and positive and your too fucking thick to know it isn't because you can't look in the mirror you Irish female turkeys, and in a job where they should care about children.

 I got stopped in the pub for taking a picture of a child which was a pretty non screamer a good natured child unlike this brat, the kind of child I wish I could make, I wanted to show it to a lady, in the hope she thought we could make it, and was stopped for being a pervert, like most I am a pervert, but not on this occasion.

 The Picture of Pope John Paul tearing and setting on fire shocked me when I was limited in my views,  Pictures of Leo Veradkar and Michael D. Athiest President of Ireland, Pro Choice women, should be burned by pro choice protestors on Facebook if the country doesn't get away from Hedonism soon, the ex land of Saints and Scholars is now largely morally bankrupt, Michael D. Athiest according to gossip got a few skeletons also in his closet relating to deviant behaviour. The polite old butter wouldn't melt in his mouth old man, who also could have stopped Pro Choice in Ireland, 10 times utter evil + 6 killed in 2019 closing months alone 6666 babies, babies who did no wrong,  

This about me page is a testimony to my darkness, the worlds darkness and ways to fix improve and silly rants and toilet humor worse than Borat. How can I be polite ladies, describing the awful behaviour behind closed doors, of all of us, morally bankrupt people in the West, the Rich living the life or Reilly off the slaves we have in poorer countries, us running up an IOU like fools, to those who lend money to the central banks, we will soon have to start wiping our backsides with money so banks and accountants and the illuminati won't want it back to avoid Hyper Inflation, Love is the best currency it always was and always will be.

 Thats why my dog barney is affectionate and my relative is a hard, works hard, and cold to selfish and distrusts women man, adores him and him alone, he just about respects me now but knows I'm lazy, the dog melts my brother and melts me with more affection for us than we have for ourselves, the dog has it right, the simple minded mongoloids do, children do, everyone greedy hasn't, life is meant to be simple.

If this doesn't scare you into at least trying to be a bit nicer, here is 23 minutes in hell for you from an Astronaut who has been a place far scarier than the moon and maintained sanity and emotional stability and seems genuine, unlike myself this nerd simp clown who could not even keep his ship on an even keel as a nerd alcoholic simp who did nothing but impress himself with the silly code he wrote and got a fortune for writing for at IBM and could not get his hole because the women just knew I was a simp prick, with a 28 out of 10 by 35 make a baby who no doubt inheriting my character would be a screamer, and divorce the stripper, I  tried to bribe love from while only lusting after them, because we were both too immature to maintain a stable relationship and clowns, to maintain a family and I saw no wrong in my stupid life mission.

A lot of my buddies and women are as fucked in the head as me when it comes down to it, if they truly examine their shadow, and their deepest motives. All because I heard diamonds were a girls best Friend at 5 years old, by Fred Astaire and Ginger Rodgers..., Hollywood bullshit and thought buying pretty women was a great idea because it didn't require growing old with them, you could always buy a new model or any character development whatsoever.

Here is your brutal look in the mirror Western ladies, you aren't a patch on the previous generation and you think your great, your awful narcissists who can't see your sins with your Alpha Fucks Beta Bucks attitude straight after secondary school and you expect men like me to pick up the peices when you want to settle down From what I see in divorce courts, my brother a good looking man who has the sensibilities and discipline of a great father won't touch a woman with a barge pole they would take his farm away, but this fool has a love sausage factory and wants to stick it somewhere nice and warm preferably in a lady that makes Jennifer Aniston at 23 look ugly and this Humpty still thinks there is hope of that at 53, most Western are pro choice don't see a blessed thing wrong with it, it's my body athiests and I hate Jesus and don't need anyone to pay my Karmic debts, your probably on the straight and narrow to the bad place you Alpha shagging whores, it fucking ain't you bozos its Gods to do with as he pleases, your renting the vessel, it will be pushing up daisies before you know it. I'll have sex with Chad and Tyrone..., kill my babies in the womb before they do any wrong because thats the right thing to do..., and, let Hollywood eat my aborted baby to stay young...,  and use my fetuses to make youth serums will be made of it so my husband can kill aborted babies off my makeup on my because I'm worth it hot lips you bloddy witches..., in case I have to work on my figure after childbrith with some exercise to lose the weight gained during pregnancy...., hook up with a beta simp for marriage..., cheat like mad because thats the vibe from Hollywood slute ...., string him along for cash.... I want money because I won't work and I'm Mrs vain..., buy me everything you stupid simp bozo.... that was me also with fucked up values in my own way...,  I won''t fucking work..., I look good because I wear makeup am fat and ugly but don't insult my body women, how fucking dare you, wheres my donuts, I won't fucking exercise..., and but don't call me fat I've hit the wall and don't know it and still expect Chad of my youth because I'm an immature shit who won't grow up... , never hit a lady..., your no fucking lady you whore coward shit who won't look at your reflection..., and the Bible says a whip on the back for fools..., you'd be in a Magdaline Laundry 30 years ago..., and stoned today in Afghanistan..., make me look like a fucking saint..., and I'm badass a lot of the time with addictions and bad wiring tooo... but slowly waking up to myself... unlike you vain turnips sleeeping your way into Hell..., where is captain save a Ho...., where is Jesus when you die..., you probably will be too vain and obsitinate to truly call on his name failling into Hell with all you might until it's too late..., I've had dreams of Hell..., modest ones and I othen didn't cry out because they were made easy oon me like a Harry Potter movie... it wasn't that scary, and unlke you ladies and like the Virgin Mary I'm not great but at least my beauty doesn't come off with a wet wipe.

Watch a real man, an honest man, a better than me man, a man who can speak politely to ladies, keep his knickers from not getting in a twist despite his experience, talk about his 23 minutes in Hell, the place no Athiest wants to be, but the fools deserve it for not accepting they just might be Judged for being bad actors here, explain your internal observer, your node in the cosmic conciousness you Rodger Penrose mathematically minded twit, Hawkings body squirmed because the one hit wonder tried to but God in a mathematical box the twerp, Spirituality exists, God and miracles always will be in the Gaps. The only thing that exsists is consciousness, the consmic consciousness is God and it always always existed even an infinite number of big bangs ago, it's iliogical to say it came out of nowhere, Maya, matter is an illusion, even the Yogis knew this, and the evidence is in from quantum physics, the Universe obeys Physics to give us a chance from God to manipulate it to make life easier for ourselves and progress, and ideally make Earth like Heaven and yet every Clown Superpower since Einstien is playing with Nukes, some even say we are firing at each other and they are being shot down by kinder Aliens and the Men in Black CIA clowns are firing at Aliens too to make our fighting intergalactic according to gaia.com and Cosmic Agency YouTube.

More of what I know to be true

Love rather than money should be the currency of Earth like Heaven, money is for magpies and animals are smart enough to know you can't eat it.

If men use the word sex and fuck in a sentence they are thinking of the act and the women run away unless its a Chadwick or Tyrone fantasy man talking dirty. 

My Mad Life

I had loads of spiritual experiences since my first shamanic death on a stripper pole competing with a breakdancing young buck Fabio YouTube Cosimo Citolo his Turkish Elvis Shaman Hangman Superstar MTV Breakdancing MTV Spanish Eurotrash High value man, a possible cocaine addict who can drive women an men clean bonkers as a peacock a seriously funny man, an educator in social dynamics, he told a vain woman peacocking you can't dance for shit, you should have watched the reaction way better than Borat in a town without much humour, it took me 6 months to figure out what he said to her, your a stunner Cosimo fuck you forever too.

 I fell off the stripper pole in the wonderful Perkins Park Disco Stuttgart, expensive fun where I wasted many a good night and the only place I ever felt hope of seriously pulling dancing so hard, was told I looked like Mr. Bean by a woman who got her backside felt for the compliment and I was thrown out, fair enough boys your nicer than Chasers, I now accept I look like Homer Simpson, joked in Mollies Bar that I was going to redesign Chernobyl on Smirnoff vodka like the original engineers and a toddler, a beautiful child, cried when she heard the sinister in my voice so I consoled her for her emotional intelligence.

The man on the surfboard after 14 pints of Stout is the urban myth of all time, the was on the throne in in the pub looking at his 3 stone of jet black poo wondering if he had cancer or whether he shat his innards out burning diesel on the stuff, Guinness doesn't make you a good hurler, the only legend you will have is your beer belly, and dutch courage is only interesting to the women for 30 seconds,.

When I was 51 I bought a Skye Drone, my phone said I'd marry a lady called Linda as a message, I believed it, I'd a few Lindas in mind top of the pops was a Stunning YouTube influencer a very funny lady Artist Who painted a picture of a Stripper Called Roxy Psychically a lady I might have married, the picture's called Roxy. 

As a little turd my fathers workman, who used boy racer me with Old Flames playing by Foster and Allen over to Murphys cross, the little Hitler at the back of his Mini 850 for fun, dragged me through nettles for 5 minutes screaming, I basically got educated as a cowboy great fun was had and an education, he's ashamed of this I loved it and his daughters need the same treatment the Pups.

If you've a beer belly but are a jelly baby and seriously happy in your nappy, and dance happy continously you still might have hope with the ladies, women love happy men, they usually make happy jelly babies who are not angry for being conceived..., unlike Grumpy Greta Thunberg the famous twit who got person of the year from Time Magazine..., for complaining about being alive and living in one of the richest countries in the world..., with the least problems..., Grumpy Gretas start wars look at Tootin Putin, flying on  whistlestop world tours complaining for the illuminati for carbon taxes, try Bangladesh making clothes under globalised slave labour for Niike you twit, how do you think you'll pull a nice boy complaining with your knickers in a twist.

How could you Greta, my advice to you is to calm down, take a few hash cookies or a Marietta and stop your war with on Humanity you Tootin Putin many work hard you don't, fix your bed, tidy your room, clean your house, the jacks and under the sink included, iron your clothes and your families, cook a nice meal for your father, clean your garden, plant some roses and veg  plant a few trees locally, volunteer for tidy towns and volunteer in the local recycling centre near home in Sweden and change the World like a happy person should.

God rules the laws of Physics are patterns, God gives us a dopamine hit when we notice a pattern it's called a laugh, comedians are the ultimate educators not physicists or mathematicians.

Your pretty primary school teacher biggest education is when the boys to get their first boner, when they get a star put on their forehead, and, shit blown up their backsides about how great they are in school and they are the best boys, they boys then expect to be breastfed and to climb back into the womb to avoid the classroom bully making life to complex, but unfortunately this doesn't happen in primary school, and the boys write the word sex on the blackboard, and pee in the class, getting horny turn gay and even contemplate playing with the dogs at homes diddles but the less said about that the better that's almost getting dirty and staring at cows ghouls in the milking parlour even worse where the male mind goes is a very dark place because we are demented when we don't get any, we look at their best friends wee willys to compare sizes and wonder if it will satisfy the pretty teacher.

Another extremely sad thing I did at 45 on a decadent friends advice I visited a escort asked for sex and got the worst wank of my life it was depressing.

Down in the corner near the library which contains truly ungodly witchcraft books like Harry Potter which don't mention God at all because the ape who wrote it thinks a man who died for her sins must be a bad man and I'm not running up a karmic IOU with no God man. 

Harry Potter the worlds most pathetic Superhero

The only good thing one can say about Harry as a hero is he has fewer seirous character flaws than myself to overcome. 

Harry Potter the character with loads of good friends to help him beat valdimort, cowards adore because he is the weakest form of hero and he's really special at best he is just a polite sweetie, fuck he even got a scratch on his face in the school of hard knocks to prove he's a hero, never gets kicked in the Balls for calling a bully his nickname and half castrated, never gets his teeth smashed in, doesn't fight on the losing side in any war, and avoids all sorts of trouble saying pathetic magic words to wish trouble away, while Jesus died on the cross for our sins yet nobody believes.

 Harry is so fucking pathetic as a hero he even makes me look like a warrior superhero whose surmounted the unreal in my life and my father even more so ,sher, I even milked a few cows to feed my Chinese slaves, what have the women making clothes 14 hours a day in sweatshops done for a pittance in Bangladesh to keep their kids alive in a sinking country these are heroes, and I sometimes even dodged a few kicks from dancing cows, shit I even got to practice karate dodging kicks from mostly slow animals in the parlour but the old kick really fucking flies and leaves a bang that could kill off the metal bars when cows are pissed, I even swung and tried modest gymnastics on the bars in the parlour sher shit I can nearly do a head over heels I'm so athletic, survived a crushing of a hungry 500 weight animal who saw foooooodddd, spewing shit bullets from their backside and a getting piss in my eyes and surviving to feed the hungry in China who would otherwise be eating bats, a hero better than harry, all in a days work as a farm labourer and the only time I felt proud of myself aside from writing good code I'm fucking unreal.

Harry being a polite boring shit never even gets told he is not good enough for a woman as a shit test, the pathetic shit would cringe, the ground would swallow him up and die... wwwhhhyyyyyy!!!!, if it happened to him, women you got it all wrong about how hard mens lives truly are. J fucking K Rowling Stephen yuppie Coward Fry there is no God why should anyones life have challenges. 

I don't like them, Friend you lost contact I gave a very airbrushed picture of you in my book and it wasn't appreciated, so now you get it I'm telling no lies Friend, home truths other buddies like Cormac the sweetheart loves you more than I do, we bitch, to thy self be true from a man who knows your every bit a naughty a as me hiding in corporate America.

Primary School Friend, a criticism of a man no worse than me except when it comes to money and the IOU's people can afford the opportunistic successful charming cute man, can he handle gossip or criticism in public, the funny mocker, this criticism which might getting me levelled by him, I'm not very nice in it, but I am not lying unless I've blind spots in my interpretation of what actually happened, just telling my side of the story, Friend up yours too messages in the comments below for everyone to read, to depress me and anger me in return, you varnish things a lot with sweet words and not fully describing in writing events that were things are not so rosy, they never were, we fought like cats and dogs and had a serious love hate after 8 years old like most buddies on this Earth, it's by friction in the washing machine fixing each other through constructive criticism that we wear as stones into perfect spheres and better people I hope you accept this hard criticism to better yourself and leave your touches

Primary school buddy, I didn't like you throwing my precious compass into the grass in primary school, I'm a German by nature and want everything perfect for me, I didn't understand the nature of the ballhop in building character and didn't understand it in local pubs either, few of us do, thanks for helping me look for the compass afterwords it was a nice memory, close to breaking my nose in a fair fight which he got the upper hand and saying don't tell the head master laughing but not apologising I suppose it was funny as it wasn't your bloddy nose almost broken. Also dossing after getting paid to load bales for my father, it was fine me doing it, I'm special his precious dweeb, you probably only got 50p for a days work but it bought precious Taytos and Coke.

 You spat at me for fun and I spat back less, but I remember chasing some poor kids like a psychopath threatening with a penknife to cut their throats and leading the charge like a clown in primary school I would have done nothing but it was a bozo thing to do, I for once was the alpha psychopath and you were the sidekick who saw fuck all wrong with it, and destroying Majella Murphys dress with ink, you threw eggs into my eye in the hagart, I was a total bully to others but less to you, you were the better scrapper and athlete, laughing as he threw me off the bale trailer and hitting my head off the chains on the back of the tractor but somehow not getting hurt, did I die in an alternate reality, I survived wasn't hurt, and Primary School Friend you could have been brought up for manslaughter nothing bad happened so you didn't give this dangerous event much reflection we were clowns, and you could not handle my come uppence for him either when I let it be known I remembered the shit tests, the bible say a mocker never forgives can you?, and didn't seek revenge but I was less than mad about you at times, which I did without any holding back after his sweet father died, he was too sweet he could not manage you like my father me which led to me considering him too soft on a pups like us and as a result I did not respect the gentleman as much as I should have, even Jordan Peterson YouTube preacher says man to be good needs to be capable of being a monster, even I'm too soft, I'm a bully psychopath sissy beta nerd ex simp a blabbermouth gurrier and still in ways a Homer Simpson my honest characture which doesn't win over too many ladies or men or ex bosses to truly respect or love me, but with YouTube street education I'm getting more streetwise and still a good albeit lazy software engineer behind on the latest software fashions because except for AI it sucks, apes reinventing wheels at all angles for no reason, with a slant towards Physics.

Like many other friend enemies fighting as friend do through life which is mostly what I make built my character but I wasn't hard enough on him avenging myself for him to consider me an equal, you never visited me in psychiatric hospital either I suppose I proved myself too big a prick after your father died,it  was fair weathered friends and you talk shit sandwich like he was the best friend I ever had your not anymore the damage is done on both of our parts but definitely my closest and original as a young child and I've very fond memories of this and driving home in your fathers modest car for the first tiime.

Primary School Friend you've charm and cunning the one women were fonder of him than me, a life lesson and I was the same for him as the niave gullible nerd twit he hung around with, when he showed signs of softness while I was in Apple on the phone evil rose in me and I felt it was time to move in for the kill and get revenge on the IOU he ran up in borrowings of my goodwill and him treating me with more mocking hangman fun and life lessons which I didn't fight my corner enough against his cocky I'm the top dog face or at least never succeeded to, a mocker never forgives according to the bible is this you??, unforgiveness is a route to Hell according to the bible,  even more so than the road to hell being paved with good intentions. Your better off than me but have family Primary School Friend Bezos the worlds second richest man pays no tax Amazon is a great company possibly the best after google, but why should Jeff accumulate so much wealth, because he is your boss?, and you don't think he and yourself should give to charity, you silly man and you won't ask him, admittedly I stopped it interfered with me drinking beer but I gave some to avoid Hell somewhat, as I said I'm a Novice Christian Shaman and Novice Quantum Engineer thats what happens after 17 years in psychiatric hospital you get enhanced perspective and know things most don't because you've made more big mistakes in life God interferes more with your life path and you learn life lessons some in slightly altered realities, and fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and I had many many scares from sources higher up the spiritual foodchain, you don't think God rattles my cage check my past emails and see if you smell just a little instability from fear, from my reality worldviews being seismic shifted by my new reality as a man who may be going to the bad place, he can rattle you and Jeff Billionaire Bezos too few years I wish no bad but money saves nobody from lifes misfortunes even lucky Steve Jobs you invariably will in old age unless you die suddenly get dementia and start talking to your dead family members, I was visited by my dead uncle in psychiatric hospital or someone who looked damn like him, both my aunts talked to my father before they died in their transition between worlds, money saves a few lives not many you can't take it with you, and medicine grossly over rated. You should have argued your case when I went to pluck Jeff and stood your ground rather than burying your head in the sand hiding in California and debated the best way to redistribute world wealth fairly charitynavigator.org is great a lot of charity shops lose money and are just providing money for landlords, a lot of conmen out there, some people are addicts and should be kept as far away from money as possible, sher you can't be seen talking to nutters like me what would Jeff think.

 My mother died and my grandmother before her of cancer at 45 and were treated with  big radiation guns and posionous chaemo which possibly cost the eqivilent 300k euro medicine is bullshit do you really think this is the best money can buy even Steve Jobs avoided it, this is all ahead of us, so be nice to people, you can't take the money with you, and god will not be happy if you base your worth on greed, I've seen enough to believe but at the moment am minding my money, I've a lot less than the Jeff who pays no tax and borrowed the wealth of banks to become stinking. 

Primary School Friend I don't know economics to well, all I know is I'm scared of going to the bad place and this is my main worry, but i don't like wars or people starving any more than the next fellow, or working for a pittance maybe even at an extreme maybe Jeff should own all the bloody worlds wealth, he is a better businessman than Elon, but people working for Amazon are slave driven. Maybe Jeffs money though money in banks feed the poor, I don't know, maybe if you don't help charities somewhat and don't take some responsibility for the lives of those less fortunate than you even if it's just a smile, you will end up in divorce court and plucked like Jeff Bezos wife turkey plucker by your wife from a poorer country. Who will realize your not playing your best game and cowardly, and believes more in wealth distribution to the poor, you will talk about this to your wife someone will talk and it might all come and hit you at some stage, you may just say D.J. is a cunt on the moral high ground and trigger her.

As a Christian Shaman I'm selfish enough to be  mostly scared for myself and have had plenty of demonic and fairy activity in my life, you will too most likely when you start doting buddy, I've no idea where I'm going, I've no idea where anybody is going, I don't even know if I'm fairly good, I'm not compared to my mother that I know, I'm just prompting you to watch your own back as a bit of advice and if you don't do what can reasonably be expected of you if there is judgement for you God will to throw you in the bin as a peice of himself, thats a bad egg if you don't meet the grade watch https://iands.org, you will learn all the possibilities people see but know sweet fuck all from it for sure even after 500 hours watching near death experiencers who knows whats next for sure, but I've had Jesus rock my world too Biblical experiences and make me feel like shit for my 40th birthday an awful examination of conscience, read the rest of this page and watch the Stigmata video.

 I was chased by a devil naked through fields, I felt what it was like to come off heroin due to psychiatric drugs,but I drink, The fridge jumped in my house caused ceiling structural damage and I heard a voice say internally drink Murphys and watch what happens and loads of Murphys died one in three people who died were Murphys over a three year period, my father might be in the bad place for encouraging me to drink, when I drank Murphys this should be one in seventy five, I won the lotto statistically on Murphy deaths, including my aunt whom I got an email from for my 50th birthday from beyond the grave, my mother got cancer the time we started drinking, I wasted a fortuune on dutch courage and I was twice thrown into psychiatric hospital in a daze when I dried to bless pubs with magic mushroom like experiences dazed and rescued by my cousin Mary Casey who was less than appreciative of my apparent fairy induced stupidity.

 I don't know if Amazon is a good or bad thing but the value is unreal not due Jeff but due to unfair globalisation, but the excessive one use packaging and the Chinese and Bangladesh ladies making the clothes 4 billion going to landfill every year and not resold by online shopping if the wrong size or quality is an absolute disgrace and amazon is doing damn little about this waste except pumping the consumerism bubble keeping factories over producing and Amazon returns pallets should be promoted more who needs fucking packaging anyway it's mostly a stupid dopamine hit caused by wasting and remembering opening the stupid present from Santa as a child.

 

I bought 3 crappy peice of CAN bus electronics hardware online on impulse thinking I'll do car hacking and make Knight Rider out of a Trans Am from Detroit fantasy thinking on Facebook Marketplace with monkey mechanic buddys who could do it but don't take me seriously and I don't have the money and aren't going at it hell for leather doing a classy job and selling like hotcakes to boys who want toys and will pay through the nose for them, Geoffrey Hotz comma.ai open source self driving car software dronecar projects on github.com for remote control by phone you get the idea, they all are near useless and a few USB raspberry pi wifi relays and no manuals to be found on the buy page or even URL's in the packaging, your electronics buyers are missing the mark nearly as bad as alibaba.com talk to sales with online messaging for no good reason and they which don't supply manuals to read, Farnell and Radionics are still better for electronics buyers despite costing twice the price your making stupid mistakes. Amazon as great I adore it but it still makes the odd boo boo.

 John F Kennedy was one selfish icon, just because he lived the life of self importance with the ladies and power during the golden age of America as President doesn't mean he should be emulated, happiness is got through being responsible, and having a clear conscience where the needs of the world and your talents collide in servitude, which cause endorphin release not pleasure not being top of the pops.

 I was at my saddest when loaded in chasing strippers every night looking at the best black holes of resposibility in Stuttgart every night nothing was enough, John F.  was good for Ireland but rode all round him like Michael Collins the true reason Michael died, and caused Marlyn Monroes death one way or another and cheated on his wife,

  I much preferred Saddam Hussein, not as pretty, but would do a dirty job with his own gun, shooting bad politicians, rather than letting the idiots who wear suits condoning murder and get others to do their dirty work, while keeping their hands clean run roit in Iraq, how many chickens did I murder to eat and I never did butchering they were killed for me I'm evil against chickens. America doesn't understand the Arab Mind as Saddam stated and a city in Iraq the size of Dublin is levelled as a result of American Interference by Isis and this I doubt made as much news as Kim Kardasians backside in America, and Gadaffi was a lovely man Muhammad Ali, Witchy Saint Sinead O'Connor who straighted out the church as Pope John Paul was too much of a cowardy custard and Cat Stephens are Islamic, he just talked about sending a man to the moon, sher I can talk about sending a man to Jupiter, allegedly started the bay of pigs, so stop the hero worship of American money Icons, we betrayed each other in so many ways, still are, I know you hate people talking about you, but you deserve it and the look in the mirror, I'm gossiping about my self too in public rather than present an airbrushed picture of myself women hate it, it drives people away it scares them but its me, why  bother it fools nobody, and if a person can't handle your warts they are fair weathered, and you in how many ways did you ask for your end of the shit sandwich you political don't gossip about , my mother barely said a thing embarrassing and you went off your rocker at 13, how much bad mouthing have you done about me?

 I'm nitpicking here bigtime like you nitpicked me for slurping tea but your speech unfortunanely was not on the political money at your mothers furneral, your brother John should have been astute enough to edit, but he didn't, your mother was a nice lady, but you covered the speech with an air that sparkled with American and with the tip of a hat full of Blarney Darby O Gill Leperacaun inspiring phraseology to an audience of Irish, Tenant Housed middle aged Sinn Fein Valued, GAA Alcoholic Gurriers like you'd be if you were not American, with 20 20 hindsight you should have give me a read to filter the speech to the for the audience so it would not embarrass the listener, this goes down lovely back in America, who love shamrock, but not at Drommahane Mass with the at least for Drunken Beanos like Pio O Connell, Mick Cooney and Myself, gurriers to the last, who would be judgemental having a love hate with you as a successful Rich American Immigrant who left us for greener pastures and be quite jealous, think John B. Keane, The Field.

 You unfortunately picked this up Tim Cook style Apple Corporate smarmy political talk which doesn't ring true for me at least as a Beano, Black lives matter is typical of this, if they did to Obama why would one in two blacks in New York be aborted while Obama was President, I'm a noble man and corporate America is good Californican Baby Boomer bs.

 No wonder I wanted to pick pocket Americans in 1975 like a Roma Gypsy and a Roma Gypsy Assistant Mayor ran off with 5k of my money, a funny casanova like Joe Dolan, Sebastian Serifovic, I was trying to donate to make a computer club for Roma Gypsy children but he had bills wives children girlfriends and addictions and not much but a perfectly pressed suit to impress and he was bumming places to stay in Brussels, they got my goat up and were ripe for plucking, they used fly on holidays 1975 when it was expensive, that was like going to Mars for me, some Americans are bloddy nice, I met nicer than the Germans in Germany from IBM, but I didn't like many of the Apple Cupertino Americans, and I was stone mad brainwashed about my great German buddys, we were programming our way to the moon but they kept me at an isolated social distance, were polite and paid me well, isolated me into being an even more lonely neurotic in Germany, the perfect anti social pricks who didn't want to know my problems as a needy nerd.

 I suppose I was isolated in Chapel Lane too not being the pretty boy and chasing the golden pussy.  I met nice Americans many, but the corporate types a lot of them are full of it, I should not judge people by race, and I got plucked myself in Brussels by 4 conmen in one month, for my 40th birthday, 20k euro for the same reason, I'm probably one myself in ways, unknown to myself, as a twerp who had money for a while and don't even know it.

 I was a fat lazy sitting duck not able to keep up with the pace of a shitty narrow streeted city of small very expensive apartments which you need 300 euro a day to survive in full of pick pockets attracted by greed from politicians, and more of the same as a fat turkey rich fool with some cash simping and plucked by lean burn turbo charged strippers in Stuttgart. 

Get too corporate comfortable with a full of shit self protection through money attitude you get plucked by your gringo poor Mexican in Laws and their outlaw inlaw buddies who need the money way more than you, from what I smell you turning into in 2001 more worried about yourself than you dead father was sad, we should wise up and get less of a self absorbed attitude, this is what I smelt in your September 11th email embarrassment and I went for the kill i was itching, and I deserved to get mentally ill due to your witchcraft hate aimed back at me afterwords I got 17 years looking in the mirror, it was my biggest fuck up in my life, pure evil rather and a political hang of myself,... stupidity, and more were to follow due to me getting used to talking freely,  maybe I'm hanging myself at this moment, I hope not it feels good due to a badass dopamine hit and thats a bad sign, you'd done many wrong moves but thought you were winning I was keeping score on a now avoider of me getting on with your own life, as the youngest child you were soilt who left your sister look after your parents as they got old and moved where opportunity knocked I suppose you'd have had more difficulty getting married where you were less exotic, and I'm a complete fool myself, and now those days are gone and I'm not so self assured either, I'm plucked and I'm fucked, and by the looks of things you'd still beat me in a fight due to my psychiatric meds, am I scared maybe, I will let you know when I see you, my mood fluctuates between psychopath and total coward all the time, so I will avoid you till I get cocky enough to have a hope against you, as the Beatles said. I don't know the reprocussions of this I just hope to God they are good for both of us love haters somehow, Peace. P.S. You knew the money can't buy me love was the truth, you could have warned me of my irreversible simp brain damage sooner with a mallet to the brain rather than listening to fairies on the psychiatric hospital singing your Beatles truth from Primary School Friend for my 50th birthday

 

Thanks for the dirty look at the Party in Burnfort when I wasn't seducing the nice dental nurse who was half interested, you showed concern at my unmitigated stupidity thanks it took me 20 years to figure out why the look was dirty, yes I am that thick, I'm a bit autistic in quickness at seizing opportunity but gradually getting smarter in wisdom but I don't think I will ever be opportunistic when it comes to seizing the moment I'm too stupid as an opportunist.

The nurse wasn't as substantial a challenge as your seducer ego engineer, big dick energy Musical female flirtbox Bibi Baskin bullshit style primary school teacher, with a nice family, and strict father, fill the clown with flattery about how great he is on the keyboard, blow shit up his fat arse and rub him with my Princess Grace glove, that will do it, and treat him like a little boy, and get into the funny places in his head he never knew existed, as he regresses to a first class original love primary school boy in love with his Primary Schoolteacher, georgous flirtbox you know who,your ex girlfriend.  

The Princess Grace type turned my head inside out, it was enivatable, the perfectly executed flirt that left nothing to the imagination and smelt of the most beautuful femal poo that would make roses grow beautifully a young Mrs Bucket in Keeping Up Appearances, and I was thinking of making georgous children with her, and, turned me into a near psychopathic obsessive compulsive simp stalker who had to have her for 3 years, you've no idea..

 I could not help myself, man she was a Turbocharged Ferrari piece of work to drive men mad and men love Turbocharged Ferraris like Sophia Loren who can give a man the Roller Coaster experience emotionally. I still need to grow up, I am all over the place man, always was always will be.

 How is life in poorer than Ireland California dreaming land of opportunity we have great cheap skateboards now in Ireland and my sisters boys can do most of the tricks we only dreamed about on our cheap crappy  any buddies lose houses to fire..., while I didn't give a crap about September 11th wall street selfish stockbrokers losing their lives, The Invisible People documentaries about the Poor in America on YouTube scared me, earthquakes are another problem for you not in Ireland.

 I'm living the life of an irresponsible Reilly on disability, with free travel and more, because the narrow minded psychiatric doctor in Ireland is still dosing me up and won't leave me alone, I suppose your hanging on at the top of the career ladder at 53 with responsibilities and up at 5am in the morning, sometimes I stay in bed 120 hours a week when depressed other times I'm up at 5am too to walk Barney, president of Ireland, I doubt keeping highly demanding Jeff Bezos happy because your change the world hardware is probably as good as it will get unless you get to manage a fresh technology, and I see no new places for new opportunities, because Californication is worse off than Ireland and in decline due to America having enemies and spending 700 billion a year on weapons nobody country can afford that stupidity even for petrodollars.

 I suspect with our cards your running out of chess moves to go up at least and I got more than you at the bottom of the ladder as an idle blogger talking shite, not much money, but having fun, can I bum 1 trillion off you and Jeff please, I promise to pay it back, I'll pay you on Tuesday for a Hamburger Today....I need contacts willing to have fun, for all my blogging nobody contacts me except the odd email for a contract in London or Brussels going over ground as an Embedded developer the raspberry pi can do but they insist on RTOS and new hardware using 20 year old tech, am I that boring????,  but I now won't do jack shit unless its for a greater good and then still maybe nothing, maybe I should play the rest of my life out small blogging and gossiping about my great ham sandwich buddy on a double deal betrayal who is scared of contact in case he goes nuts too due to brain infection with my idioticy..., with no clothes on Saint Scoundrel who got me kicked in the balls by Fr. Donavan for making me laugh my arse off in service as an altar boy in Bweeng Primary School Friend

Mick Cooney could take you, I never managed, you were and always will be pretty much invincible and unsinkable in my eyes especially Gaelic in primary school. God bless and best of luck Primary School FriendI hope you learned from the view in the mirror it's unvarnished truth from my side AFAIK so to thy self be true and take the look in the mirror, you've changed got less brave and avoidant of lifes troubles as a yuppie and less brave with family responsibility and I suspect far less aware of your shadow, where you came from, and your past, and where your going, your unvarnished psycho analysed even better than with Your as lovely as Barney dog as a Child, the mirror to your adventorous soul,only our dogs love us more than we love ourselves.

I even Heard your dog bark in my cousins wah wah cry baby pedal maybe he reincarnated, a musical instrument played an F minor 7'th at a buddys house, when I was playing an F major, musical instruments have souls which manifest, also the Yamaha Keyboard played shoe the donkey another time one of the family kids was plonking random notes, the house is infested with faeries for me and nobody notices, the smoke alarm beeps and puts thoughts in my head in the house, mine was telling me stop getting notions about messing with a toot toot of a minor, it's perverted but not as perverted as being Pro Choice ladies. The father didn't get angry, I was tempted but behaved.

 

The Thai people accept child sex, and have ladyboys in the mix from God to keep Gary Glitter types ballhopped, they don't accept Pro choice, I ideally accept neither but I got my temptations like every other bloody man and get tempted after beer or when hormones kick in, everyone has thoughts many hide them even from themselves. 

How many of ye women have thought of using the PTO of a fine Massey Ferguson tractor as a Drilldo and killing youselves, spinning on your precious pussies like an inflatable doll spewing your blood everywhere blowing your head off in the ultimate orgasm, it's a fucking great way to commit suicide but I don't want to clean the mess of broken pussy up that I could have used to make a fine child, what a waste of pussy, the type of doll that men buy because they ain't getting any breast feeding anymore from their mommas, making a Yodeling 70's Swiss Porn horror movie, A Rocky Horror Show advertising for more Farm Safety for the Farmers Journal,

 It would be for the greater good of Muck Savages like us all a fast education for 3 year olds and funny, https://www.darwinawards.com for more of this type of humor.

 It even crossed President Mary Robinsons and Mc Alleeses keen legal mind, for one nanosecond before they blotted the thoughts out of their minds conviced that God didn't see and the boys didn't know we all know, it crossed all womens even the Virgin Marys in Medugorje, that's why she shows her tits off to visionaries and gets stabbed by a sword in them, and a slap in the tits is like a kick in the balls as one fine lady told me because the beautiful scamp Esther wondered if I'd hit her for robbing me of 10 grand in the macabu.de and promised to be my wife but had no intention.

 

Bob Geldof pissed off with life and Mary Robinson blowing shit up his arse on T.V., after the life party on the roller coaster that had one High Point in Live Aid, the best gig of all time, that Thin Lizzy wasn't invited to because they were Irish and Phil Wanted it, he probably died pissed off he wasn't invited that would induce more heroin like it did in you know who.

 

The Irish hate the Irish, that's why U2 went to America to get big so the jealous cunts in Ireland could not ignore their brilliance, Phil a Brilliant Druggie at the time, a Gurrier and can blow perfect pomp Queen and the great Freddie off the Stage and have, and Sir. Bob Geldof knows it and even the brilliant Boom Towns.

 Do you not think Boys are Back in town would have gone down well Bob the Irish Party Boys Anthem? Couldn't you have left the stage up for one more fucking song maybe even a few I was a popping and could have got a shift and even sex at 15 if you kept the party fucking going, school was out for summer, and we loved that fucking show, what a memory Bob and thanks for it.

 Churchill during World War II buggered little boys probably to inspire his fine Battle of Britain rants the Hero, The kids didn't tell on Jim'll fix it because they had what the considered in ways a starfuck, the same with Gary Glitter, playing with a childs diddles as bad as it is, it's less wrong than the murder of an innocent get used to it, I decided wait at least till she is 21 but I would be 62 then fuck it and over the hill but thats life, the Guitar played the minor chord while I was holding a major, a shamanic miracle the yype I regularly get,String Theorists take note string theory is about music 11 dimensions 11 semi tones in a octave I keep telling ye, I even had Ozzy Ozbournes Crazy Train played by the rocks on the road on the wheels of my Car,

The sweetheart flirted with me at mass, and other dumbo pretty women flirted with me too seeing her go at it, they wanted the validation of being known they are the pretty ones, give that to a woman easily she loses interest straight away, even I do, no competition, the competition was hotting up for this simp for a while, Female Herd Mentality, like the Herds of women who chased Elvis, The Beatles, The Bay City Rollers, Boyzone, West Life, women chase men in Herds, none are independent minded enough to go for me without competition, was the only lady left interested a sweet funny intelligent girl that goes to a special school only because she clams up talking occasionally a intellectual powerhouse a sweetheart, 

I believe she clams up talking because some man is interfering with her, like I would, if the Guitar didn't let me know God was watching, a miracle, the kind I get all the time now, like the ones that throw me in Psychiatric Hospital for trying to bless pubs, no wonder I was seduced a bit , I'm a ex simp getting desperate in middle age, listen to Jimmy Hendrix he was killed for killing his soulful guitars setting them on fire and being desturctive doing Voodoo Chile to impress, Keith Moon died for the same reason. 

John is the member of your family I get on best with and yet he has little time for me either, pity I never got to know your sound wife or kids and wonder if any are nerds with something to prove looking for a teacher, it's my only talent of consequece, I was a crappy keyboard player who got a good sound, you bent notes out of tune and were out of tune in other ways too as clever as you are, and in Fitzpatricks it was you who got the bloddy song wrong and kicked me in the ankle for your  mistake remember that. 

Thanks for the serious encouragment in the mini marathon, I never went to your wedding I regret this and well done for getting a very large slice of the American Dream even if you cut a few corners you cute whore, when I was 15 but running long distance meant little to me except pain, it's fucking boring, mile after fucking mile, after fucking mile, just because I was alright at it didn't mean interest, I preferred coding up to 32.

 I know someone who did an Ironman and the facebook pictures the look of a man in pain why am I trying to impress people with this shit, but I loved it when I got fighting fit doing weights, swimming, yoga, karate, exercising in childrens playgrounds and doing calistetics at 3am in the morning after the disco which drove the old farts downstairs mad and helped get me locked up, in Stuttgart trying to pull strippers before my meltdown and would liked to have kept it up, but the psychiatric medication and discouragement from my sister, who didn't want me making Kathleen Cremin horny or allegedly shocking a conservative woman to death with my hairy chest, and I ran naked a few times including Stuttgart city centre believing I'd get into heaven via Perkins Park disco and I'd better leave earth as I came in wearing nothing and nobody died of shock, women are full of it, I was only showing off my bear chest running, and her shit testing made me lazy due to discouragement, while she has no problem with her man Ken running around in Sligo in his underpants, double standards sibling sister double standards. 

 Your one of my serious love hates in life Primary School Friend you brave opportunistic cunning if you don't make opportunities for yourself nobody else will make them for you, working harder as a teenager cute whore, with less money in your family, in my books you ran up a small IOU which you don't fucking want to pay, you should have had the grace an gratitude to turn back and say thanks when helped along in life a bit more as I should to my mother and father.

 I saw this over and over, charming begging pleading but no thanks afterwords, you took credit for others work in college and probably still do this as a manager, but I know you get the best out of your people, you do praise occasionally you fucking smart self absorbed like myself charmer but I'm not charming from what I'm getting from women I'm still repulsive and my toilet talk doesn'r help, your a romancer who took every chance with women and made the best of them, I left what I got fall on the floor, smart enough to learn cute whore life lessons from your brothers mistakes and never spanked with the Wooden Spoon by your Father as a misbehaving scam artist toddler, because he was afraid he would hurt your naughty precious bottom, you ham sandwich.

You all force me to develop character but to gossip about you cunts like myself too, and Anton Wallace and Pio. You got it all fucking wrong about Jesus you athiests can't comprehend why anyone would be brave enough to sacrifce themselves for someone else because you would not do it, and even me only to a small degree, a sacrifice compute for the greater good... would you die and go to Hell for a few days for others, accept it Jesus a true hero, Supermans best attribute was he cared about his old mother like Elvis because she cooked for him, advised him on how to please pretty women like Loi,s loved him more than even he loved himself, and mended his clothes, it was a no brainer for these pretty boys.

And back to my Harry Potter Criticism

 Your really special Harry you magic twit go and do a few rounds with Mike Tyson without your magic devil given powers, but you can have some Jack Daniels and Cocainey Wokainey to give you some fight like Tyson so you'd have a hope in hell, you little shit, he is only a mortal man too, and accept where you truly stand as a hero, and see how special your pretty face is when it gets spanked by a hard fist like mine was and most other little boys in Ireland was a few times, without any women except my mother and not my sibling rival sister giving a flying fuck and me not giving too much of a shit in return being self absorbed wanting romance for myself when my mother was dying of cancer, we are all self absorbed ittle shits, most of us anyway and the bigger shit you are like Steve Jobs the more you'll be idolised. The only thing good I can say about Harry is it gives 3 year olds a modest adventure about  the facts of life for a man about as scary as the Tellytubbies.  Harry is about as tough as me going for the bus on my first day at primary school. How can Harry be a hero without going into the school of hard knocks J.K., how could he, the only thing true to life as Harry on a heroes journey you can say is true to life is his family are unplesant and he has to overcome that.

 Even Pinocchio went through more life shit in the school of hard knocks, he got addicted to drink on pleasure island for fuck sake, some of which is the story of my life, it's easy to overcome addiction when life deals you pleasant flowers in other areas, a pleasant life has been shown in the lab to get rats to overcome addiction something to fucking live for is what people want and as Viktor Frankyl said in Auswich when there is a why one can overcome almost any how, and requires more grit than Harry has to overcome you delude yourself, or don't have the street smart or solid advice from good friends to see your way through a roadblock life problem on your way to a period of temporary happiness, and fair weathered friends don't want to help you sort your problems out, and your left as a needy woman crying for help like I was, when life gives you shit sandwich after shit sandwich after shit sandwich.

 Watch Gladiator J.K. Even Star Trek all characters who die as heros are forgotten about not deemed unimportant to the story, the fucking Beta losers as Trump would call them, we all know Kirk Never Dies, the genius that doesn't have to study, drinks himself stupid but never gets a beer belly and fucks all round him in his happy parade through life, a true hero my arse. 

Star Trek is great horse shit, especially scientifically, but who made that shit up about how true heroes are made, the only thing thats Even more horseshit I've ever seen is the man on the surfboard after 14 pints of stout that Christy Moore could never figure out because he tried his bollocks off and failed to do it.

 That's when heroes are made heroes like Jesus who keep going to Hell to rescue Ho's for Heaven whose wounds are still open because he is blocking the devils spears with his wounds fighting to save souls who call on his name at the end of their lives, Even Mother Teresa died an Athiest, Probably Saint Robin Williams and Charlie Chaplain too because these saw the darkness of mens hearts and concluded there is no God but wished there was.

The boys hoping the primary school teacher will educate them with a few serious tricks they learned in the bedroom off the boyfriend they are marrying and happily boast about to the 7 year old horny boys knowing that hottie is gone forever, arrrggghhh.

Before the boys sex drive diminishes and the girls lose interest and they get written off by the girls in the classroom who stopped trying to steal a kissy kissy at the old age of 7, and the women no longer consider the boys sexy because they lost a few teeth due acid attack from fizz bomb addiction, damn you fucking tasty fizz bombs, Coca Cola and Goggins lemonade, the tasty shit that got me to lose my megawatt smile and my mother not spanking my backside to brush my teeth, the bitch had perfect teeth and never brushed.

Mams one mistake was she didn't equate that all dads teeth were gone at 9 and realize I hadn't won the genetic lottery, I could have done with some colgate and a brush, and scary pictures of old men without teeth to contemplate whether I wanted to look like those ugly pictures, and had teeth looking like they are made of the same material composition as a dirty toilet to educate me.

The worlds scariest thing is a person who claims to be highly intelligent but not smart enough to look after their teeth I hate looking at toilets and have, they are clowns why would anyone ruin the vessel that God gave you unless they had a mother too stupid to explain the consequences of not keeping fit and having basic hygene, and I include myself on that assessment.

My Primary School Hedonism Fantasies

 

The true story of the boys in primary school and what goes on in their little minds unedited, ask my old buddy Primary School Friend Hay with no clothes on, I'm making Bread with the Hay as God The Father as man suggested in a Psychic Note in Psychiatric Hospital for my 50 Birthday for his side of the story my primary school sweetheart and thanks for the education and telling me the flying saucer I kept redrawing was georgous and I wasn't thick just my pretty sister was getting more of mams attention so had a head start in the education game while I was left to get educated by my Tonkas, Matchbox cars brrrrm brrrm, Britians Toy Tractors with loaders, Pedal Tractors and Plastic Ships and Footballs, and Plastic Clockwork Trains that I got for Christmas from Mammy and Daddy Santa and broke the same day the things that educated me to love toys which I still do.

Sorry My Primary School teachers, for talking dirty you sweet earth angels, I have to keep the banter dirty talk going, thank you sweetheart Primary School Friend for the fun while you were still innocent and gentle enough not to piss me off before your hangman nature kicked in, why would a fucking bully like myself want to be treated cruelly Primary School Friend, I want to be the Alpha prick too  every boy does and sulk when I'm knocked down a peg or two in badly needed life lessons in the rough and tumble play, and sweetheart Polly Gale my original honey and cool brother John for the happiest days of my life. 

God has a sense of humour use this to learn, rules are made to be broken, try to put God in a mathematical box or say he doesn't exist you will make a fool of yourself, String Theory 11 dimensions music 11 semitones, use your intuition you clowns, everything in heaven makes music life when good is music,  but offer the believer a like me a challenge, the best generally accepted theory in theoretical physics about the universes expansion rate is out by 10 to the power of 120 because its all horseshit, God makes the sums to work in most cases so Engineers can hold down a job and design cool shit, the theory of everything is all inclusive God can do absolutely anything he wants and don't be a fool and say it can only be done in a stupid Neutonian mathematical framework like most billiard ball believing worldview of athiests of amateur physicists who think they have a clue about how the world works, the 3 week old baby has a sense of wonder and every one who takes their reality tuning medicine knows cars and trees can talk to them after a few Magic Mushrooms and sometimes it doesn't even require this and they might also meet Sonic the Hedgehog or Popeye the Sailor Man.

Stephen Hawking is stupider Than My Dog Barney and I will win the argument on this

 Stephen Hawking Hawking, Hawking radiation one hit wonder, mind body spirit cringe happened because he thought he could put God in a mathematical box he fucking could not and he probably didn't get his hole off Jeff Epstiens high class hookers either despite appearing on Star Trek as a guest ,  he should have known that the Dirac equation is a hilarious mathematical joke which describes some of reality came up with by an autistic man an equality and a matrix across a previously Neutonian sum, science is about spotting patterns,.

 Voodoo doctors and my dog smelling other dogs arses  know more than Hawking and other mathematical types so do astrologists at least Richard Feynman Genius and Athiest, because God took his wife, so he said fuck you God I'm making the Atomic Bomb anyway in a tantrum and I don't believe, was smart enoughy to have a sense of humour, accepted his Jewish Rabbis made a few good points who might be right, but are I believe wrong by not believing in Jesus the Jewish homeboy while Hitler did inspired by Henry Ford that Jew Bankers caused hyperinflation in Germany so why not kill the fuckers the whole lot of them, even Jesus only got angry at the Jewish illuminati predecessors in the temple not that they are the worst but they are pretty bad and only spend their money on boring houses and old Ming dynasty teacups not as good as you would buy in aldi but would fund all sides in a war to make money from the blood on the streets, my psychiatric nurse My Psychiatric Nurse should accept I'm a stone sane whinging sexually frustrated neurotic and leave me alone, he claims to believe in Jesus, well My Psychiatric Nurse do you believe that Jesus cast out the spirit of a madman called Legion into a herd of pigs who commited suicide in the sea if this is the case why deal drugs to me that take years off my life and give me an excuse not to earn an honest wage that would benefit the world, if you don't you don't believe and neither doers my drug dealing psychiatrist Psychiatric Doctor, I don't know if I need your drugs but they have side effects called death and take 9 to 20 years off your life, I don't give a flying fuck if my sister is too stupid to keep up with me when I talk disjointed, her son is picking up all my habits can't believe the shit coming out of his mouth at the moment, I will say anything make a full fool of myself and shut up for six months, he takes magic mushrooms and the odd hash cookie but is deemed sane for the moment, because My Psychiatric Nurse can't take him in a fight to lock him up, My Psychiatric Nurse you met your match, you aren't even scared of my relative is  a hard man  and he ain't no beta male, like his fathee.

Sex: Male

Date Of Birth: 13 November 1968

Email: barrow_dj@yahoo.com

Nickname as a teenager: Dopey Joe

One of my preferred nicknames at the moment : Monkey Mechanic

Back to all about me and my wee willy wee

Self Sabotaging Traits: Ex Simp Nerd, was extremely ambitious and got smart in some ways mostly due to YouTube tried to buy women,  foolishly hated the song money can't buy me love, diamonds were a girls best friend meant I could buy the pretty ones and I tried to buy my second very pretty older more sophisticated girlfriend with all my holy communion money and went downhill from there. blabbermouth, the reason I have this trait is I enjoy debating educating myself and others sharing nerdy ideas hoping they inspire someone to go on a nerdy adventure with me and values regarding politics and spirituality and home truths learnt in the school of hard knocks after the what the fuck happened 30 years ago compute dawns on me, I'm not quick on the pick up but my computes are on the money, I drink a bit too much!..., an addiction that came from needing Dutch Courage that stuck with me and failed first year in college as a result, if I kept my head down was polite in womens company and mouth shut and bought Apple Shares while working for them I'd now be extremely rich.

Typical self sabotaging behaviour I blow holed I could rob the rich on facebook using knowledge gained in IBM mainframes on Linux for S/390 I never even wrote a virus but am capable of it, I love Richard Feynman because he is smart and naughty but should prefer Jesus, I basically now talk big but am fairly poor in my old age in follow through, bipolar schitzofrenic a Christian Shaman and quantum engineer and believe my psychoanaylist dog barney did a lot more good for me than my drug dealing psychiatrist, I fell out with a lot of ex work bosses because I produced the goods initially but they didn't deliver pretty women when I delivered good code which I much prefer to cash resulting in me wasting a fortune on strippers looking for fun and some sort of happy ever after which was going to end with unhappy kids and divorce court and an aging wife, me aging too. 

Now I have a sense of humour that makes Borat look polite. I should have loved my saintly mother more while she was alive.

Stupidest mistake made by nearly all corporate bosses: They don't give a shit about anything except their own sorry arses, they expect you to put in 40 hours a week following their orders, populo.com is a Cork based big brother email client that bosses use to check if you read their stupid low IQ emails, 

Nerds don't want money or to listen to you talk corporate shit, they if they have a high sex drive want women, some do some don't, they probably only work for you because they get paid for the latest trendy learning curve which you insisted the project is done in and the previous generation of software most likely will be less complex and more stable.

Don't be an its all about me clown like Elon Musk on YouTubeing himself to death on his 80 hour a week binge of self promotion for more sex and a new woman, he no longer does little real work and fools nobody with any semblance of intelligence, admittedly but has shown competence about equal to my own and past harder work than me a family gem mine and luck, he hasn't even gone to the bloody moon yet the worlds richest man he could not even build a copycat Saturn V,  using 1000 year old rocket technology stolen from Thunderbirds cartoons, rather than bribing Area 51 engineers.

Personally I consider myself rich in ideas, richer than Elon but I don't have 100,0000 engineers working for me and don't want that, I'm poor at focusing beyond blogging, and don't want to waste a trillion burning rubber and rocket fuel to get to Mars, I want to waste 100k using Area 51 stolen UFO technology or the technology that might even exist in St. Stephens psychiatric hospital old men up there told me they travelled the galaxy if this was with magic mushrooms I don't know but it was intrigueing and got my imagination popping.

I enjoy sharing my hard earned knowledge and life is finally getting better after a troublesome and embarrassing largely self inflicted nerds mid life crisis due to my own stupidity and immaturity, and, dark night of the soul to put things mildly, hey lifes a roller coaster enjoy the ups and downs they make things interesting when you look back at them in a good mood and say did I survive that life shit without killing myself, thank you Jesus praise you Jesus for the grit and courage to overcome this.

Elon or Jeff Bezos hasn't even flown to the White Knight Alien Satellite in orbit and known even to Tesla, expect this behavour Bosses from me and other nerds so called low value creatives, you've been warned. If you can't handle the heat, get out of the kitchen it's hot in there.

 If you don't respect a nerd enough to play a little cupid why should he save your sorry backside, he or she has enough issues in the game of survival of the fittest, at absolute absolute least recommend nerds watch 300 hours Jordan Peterson for a street social science degree to get a little social cop on from a man who can get rid of autism by explaining why people behave certain ways socially, and read the book of proverbs in the Bible grammitical machine code describing peoples personality types and I believe could even make mongoloid innocents quite socially savvy and realize there is more to life than Linux, Electronics, slashdot.org, reddit.com, github.com raspberrypi.org, Feynmans Lectures On Physics, AI, Quantum Physics, YouTube sex.com xvideos.com and Android. 

Advise the nerd to get a dog psychoanalyst from the local dogs home who will love them more than they love themselves, dog is god spelt backwards a human soul mate who knows more than the nerd from eating grass and smelling other dogs arses, chasing cats dancing to "Come on ye black in Tans, come fight me like a man" bullying poor cats, they know everything the nerd doesn't will open doors for social interactions and more, women love dogs, they are babe magnets, and looking after them will begin the journey towards being capable of looking after your own children, if the dog isn't looked after stay away from women you don't deserve them, even I aren't great.

 Thanks be to God for my wonderful brother for paying all Barneys vets bills and loving him in ways I am less than great at owing to not having much money anymore and being less than perfect as a human being., and my sister for picking up the wonderful unexpected stray joy in ways, my doggy son who is far socially smarter than me being my brothers hot water bottle, Barney the ultimate socialite survivor who should be President of Ireland and not Michael D. Athiest who could have stopped abortion coming into the land of Saints and Scholars if he didn't have an agreeable Athiest shit give the fools of women what they want its their body backbone and actually had the moral integrity to know the right thing to do rather than allow murder of those who have done no wrong because murder has a nice positive name like Pro Choice so as not to scare female turkeys intuition on murder.

 I've an otherwise extremely intelligent cousin, a dreamboat, I would have minded his kid if he had him, he's a far less grumpy whinger than me, who got his lady to take a morning after pill because he didn't want her putting on weight, she could have knocked it off again with exercise and discipline on a facebook fitness course by the wonderful Kari Pearch the fucking apes, she is  a 9.5 out of 10 idiot who got rid of her baby, I believe told me she was a lesbian to upset my approach, rather than singing Madonna pappa don't preach to herself. 

Pro Choice is Awful

The idea of abortion abhors me the idea of a clown like myself ungreatful for being born, a whinger complaining because he drank, didn't think he won the genetic lottery despite having hard working saints of parents, and didn't look after his own teeth and blaming his dentist because he ate fizz bombs and blaming his dentish for making him ugly and paying him, which I considered far worse than Mike Tyson eating Holyfields ear in a life or death situation with 50 million dollars on the table and it was fixable by cosmetic surgery, while the boys were feeling like they were on deaths door hammering the living shit out of each other like Gladiators in the Colleseum in Roman Days, life an death for a purse, did the dentist do the best he could for my teeth, I don't know, no wonder people hate dentists, but I'm sure he would have been more careful with my more high value and sexier sister Margo and I would not have spanich marks on my teeth inviting more sexy women to kiss me, god i love being kissed by sexy women. A woman who looked like an old Linda a beautiful funny lady I got enthralled with on YouTube who deleted her too funny account kissed me in psychiatric hospital because she was old about 63-65 I backed off,I wanted a 21 year old I could make babies with, but was amused, she got furious, it wasn't a young Jennifer Aniston and she was a damn good kisser. John Masterson rides old women and he is probably right they give the most enthuasism and he's a sexy sonofavodkadrinkingsaintwhocouldntstopherself, I love you John we had the kindof gay marriage without trying to make babies as my tenant that Brittas Spears would not give me ,because I failed to pick up her tennis ball, I was a Gentleman, but not a Romeo, she wasn't long out of nappies and wanted to wear the britches, she had the most beautiful laugh than you'd only describe as a mating call, and a megawatt smile, I might have died for her, but they were my britches,  if I went for with confidence as Errol Flynn no doubt would have with no regrets, I needed to find reinforcements somehow to keep the other two ladies she was playing with at 14 at the local school in the equation happy, I didn't know what to do Brittas, I was a loner, it was a no compute that I wanted to happen, I'm no hedonist, I thought I only wanted one like Romeo but 3 sounds so much better...,  I'd need a big show on the road to keep that circus going, and I'm a bloody coward, and unlike my fathers great workman for not hard working enough.

 I will try to measure up to all Charlies angels expectations in the next life, when I've more bloody experience and a bigger wee wee willy willy wee, which would satisfy all female expectations. You expect always on love, I'm shy, unsure, and will look away and lose eye contact, I'm no Kirk Douglas, well people kick dogs all the time, and their love is always on, like my wonderful psychoanalyst Barney my pet doggie, who is far smarter than all of us, and generally a nice guy except to cats..., whom he bullies for fun like you to men...,.who want you too badly after they fail to show they are perfect gentlemen in a life shit test...

Fair enough I've done it to fantastic women too... and they can't take it either, on the very rare occasions interest was shown after keeping me waiting...., we are all shit testers...., seeing what we can get away with as scoundrels..., a far funnier bullys game but the person should be advised beforehand by their mother that women who say your not good enough for them are shit testing, my mother never told me this it cut like a knife and I hated her and my sister for not giving me this bit of life advice.

It  greatly diminished my self worth, it sunk me and sinks many men and makes them more neurotic and unsure of themselves for no reason except a wise loving mothers sound advice who wants to give their child a chance to score, my father was unsinkable and this was his nature, he had a harder life than me and didn't sink he just wasn'r a pussy, loads of men are pussys but a mothers love and advice gets them women they don't deserve I know loads ones who claim to love their mothers are agnostic won't pray for them in case they get into Heaven.

I would have married the clown who aborted with my cousin with the baby hoping my brother would share some of the load and get a baby out himself he also liked her, even worse decision making than my own, and I'm allegedly braindamaged, and John Masterson my self sabotaging psychopath scoundrel tenant, hard working drinking for Ireland, like his dead mother who drank herself to death on vodka rest in peace, a truly high class soundrel scamartist Genius buddy even worse, and more funny than me, whom few respect would have minded the baby, despite misbehaving and considering himself cannon fodder and women too, that's drink for you and the dreamboat is far more respected in social circles than me by women, and still claims to be a fucking athiest, yet can't explain his own fucking consciousness. Like Daniel C. Denett the fucking philospher fool could write a book claiming consciousness the internal observer doesn't exist it's a figment of our compute imagination, and through some level of unbelievable horse shit ology be considered a far more respected philosopher than me, and sane..., please Psychiatric Doctor lock this Daniel up and give him electro shock therapy his consciousness which doesn't exist won't feel a thing, he can't because he is a compute intellectual moron incapable of manifesting conciousness..., he told us..., all this accept it as truth..., I believe the clown.

I'm barred from 3 local pubs where I spent 10 grand each in, but never scored with women in!, utter waste of time with barmen, cock blocker low iq, 45 playing self ruteous, narrow minded, legalised drug dealers who think your good only care for themselves and their own family, fuck you you know who you are, for bellowing my opinions, and highly respected in others who have the intelligence to recognize that this diagnosed bipolar schitzofrenic doesn't talk complete shit all the time. The Local In I I psycho analyse clowns not that 50 foot thingy you'd in the Guinness book of records in 1984, The an the biggest scarecrow in the Universe living in The little house beside you wanting to use the scythe in front of your counter looking at it with lust as the grim reaper on a "High Value Unhelpful Man" in the pub who claims to be scared of no man, what about a few napkins in petrol tanks?, even my mother watched films like the Punisher, Jesus was crucified by Priests, boys who did the equivalent of working over a mans testicles with a corkscrew in a swiss army knife,  he is terrified of the potential scent of piddle in his precious black Audi from giving an old man a lift to shift the local Liz Hurley which is quite obviously what he is after and you know its not Miwadi if you've the intelligence of a goldfish or are smart enough to keep this Gurrier away for causing bad publicity.

Who had no sexual relations with what woman the Clinton question, well I'm still standing without The local inn or many other local pubs are ye going to stay in business publicans????, Non alcoholic Prosecco Aldi 2.79 euro and its fucking good stuff no hangover unlike the horseshit and over priced non alcoholic beer in The Local Inn that I complained to The Gardia about but he would not attack because your so is a Garda Detective and protects your less than great pub your personality lets your down like mine lets me down but I think unfortunately for you, your a more broken man than me despite being more successful as a businessman, it ain't all about the money not too many went to that political donkey Haugheys furneral for all his political power how much better will you do, please up your fucking game. If you were a total gentleman you would refund my car, I crashed into a ladies car who worked in the pub drugged up on anti psychotics not totally pissed drunk who hasn't much money who works for you and in the interest of keeping the peace let me go scott free, you really pissed a small hard working man John Masterson off and I was dumb enough to let you, you play most peoples life cards wrong, you dealt me one important card correctly letting me flog the raspberry pi nobody was interested in a computer as good as a pc for 15 euro people in the pub have a lot to learn including your son Richard who should be smart enough as an electrician not to  insult a dirt cheap miracle so cheap due to laws of economics nobody will value it and it more powerful than IBM's 1998 mainframe fridge costing 500k euro and it the size of a tic tac box, Mr hi lo. I also tried to get people in the pub interested in a carpool website in 2006 which would give drunks free lifts home from the pub in 2006, no arse in The Local Inn was interested in this innovation either, I even got 10 minutes with Marty Whelan on the Gerry Ryan Show advertising this innovation. Nobody wants the good i can do because I don't charge through the nose, all I want is my hole a place to live, a bit of respect, modest popularirty and a good wife, enough self respect to look after myself and my children, and I ain't getting it despite spending 10k euro in your pub buying dutch courage like the rest of your customers whom you disrespect, they are providing you with a livelyhood your providing drugs people don't ultimately want seduced by advertising and stories of dutch courage at 17 and you cock blocking every man you can except your own children and the select Alpha arses who can score elsewhere, beat the crap out of you if you cross them, you consider high value. Sorry for the shit talk Pat but it was coming to you. The other arse holes of publicans in the locality don't even deserve the come uppence or free advertising  on my blog fuck em, I never claimed politeness, I'm inpolite, I'm fairly honest, I'm a Denis the Menace character who wants a woman, made enemies and earned disrespect all through life and will throw stones at glass houses, your not great but not the absolute worst, you didn't respect me enough now look at the damage and free advertising for your pub, we all want the Clint Eastwood give me a whiskey fight in the pub which is why you put up with a local scoundrel saint who used rub shit on the jacks wall after 14 pints of stout...., a bit of scandal and free advertisting. I know stories you would not believe about him,the saint was a terrorist, psychiatric doctors would not lock him up, they were fucking scared of him, you subconsciously knew this about him, which is why you served the suit dressed gentleman and butter would not melt in his mouth. The lunatic used buy this thirsty scholar shit loads of free Guinness and deal me the double ham sandwich I was 4 stone overweight so I couldn't pull his daughters. 

Leave Mark back in hes a medicine man too like yourself, and has the respectability of being diagnosed bipolar schitzo so like myself hes a Celtic Christian Shaman in the making, he needs to deliver important medicine like Magic Mushrooms from Mt Hilary to prevent depression people need to talk to the trees ...,you know it's the Celtic way..., and is scientifically proven to be 80% successful in curing depression..., google it unlike the expensive crap which Kevin Barron and the community of chemical athiests makes in little island to kill people which makes him rich, Mark loves the Vodka and needs it to keep him in balance..., he's a Shaman you know and balance is a complex thing, and pubs have to play cops and robbers, it's in the Cowboys and Indians Clint Eastwood rule book, and 5 euro for a non alcoholic beer is daylight robbery and you know it but I occasionally try to play boring legal because I liked Gay Byrne I should listen to Gays wife the barking alcopop more I suppose it's the Cowboy and pub way, I crash the car when I don't have enough drink in me over and over, and I need someone as mad as me in the place..., so I look someway respectable, now the previous lunatic who talks to Trees Sheep and Mares is deceased, God bless you Shepard, you barking madly sane genius, nobody realised you knew the mind of God, Jesus didn't hang around with boring catholic priests, he hung out with whores and slightly gay men who sin less than priests, sher if you read your bible, the bits the catholic church left out,  Abraham father of the faith had a conqubine, Moses murdered, Jesus too as a child if one is to believe the book of Thomas in the coptic bible, the only sound man not a pervert in Soddom and Gomorra got pissed after his wife was turned to salt and his daughters raped the gentleman, we have little idea what God truly wants . One world government in the pub. 

Read your Bible don't accept the Catholic Church's teaching, Samson killed 2000 with the jawbone of a Donkey, Conan the barbarian is a boring wimp in comparison, A Donkey talked and complained about being a beast of burden, Saint Paul worked a day job to earn respect how could a priest who does nothing but talk and not listen expect respect he is learning nothing on the pulpit,  the original church was a discussion and party on the teachings of Jesus, Catholic Priests sometimes have cooks who make their speeches for them, and these run the moral landscape of the community, while they get promoted to Parish Priest if their speech writer is good,

Fr. Ted is exactly how God regards catholic priests, it is funny because its gospel and true. Sinead O Connor will be in Heaven before any pope in history for straightening the Church out with her ways, Jesus loves an honest whore like Mary Magdalin. Young people of Ireland I love you can be interpreteted many ways, and as good as Pope John Paul was, he was too much of a coward to stop priests playing with little boys diddles, shyness and cowardice are sins which get people thrown in Hell read your Bible, if God expected people to be polite why would he make something as perverted as a foreskin covenant and leave Adam and Eve run naked in the Garden. Women run naked, I like looking at wobbly bits. Politeness is not Godly, it isn't speaking truth, it's only demanded by women to show restraint and not scare them, life is scary ladies I should know, if your kids end up snowflakes they will be mowed down when your Alpha male husband isn't around to protect you and your diddums, you hate other mothers kids because your all turning them into precious little snowflakes that is why you allowed pro choice to get rid of other peoples precious little cunts while talking politely and telling the edjits they are great without meaning it, My father got all his teeth knocked out by his teacher aunt at 9 for drawing funny cartoons in class and recovered from it an pulled a bloody nice lady my saintly mother whom I didn't appreciate fully while alive because I was a precious spoilt snowflake, but harder than the current generation of pampered apes in primary school, the bible says a whip for the back of fools, the current crowd you can abort them but can't take pictures of them with clothes on in the pub in case you put something up on a child pornography site or do witchcraft with the picture and the snowflakes are brainwashed too scared to go to the playground with rubber matting on the ground and scared of a sneeze called covid so they wear masks in cars in case they give the car covid, this is the intelligence of the Irish mother now and you expect me to want to marry you, not that I'm great but you think your too fucking good for me all except the ugliest and laziest of Heifers and I'm continually getting low balled by wagons shit testing because I talk straight and don't have enough money to dress the best, I need my money for the fucking pub don't you wagons know I'm an alcoholic because like every other man in the country I can't meet Mrs right. My mothers kind who could tie perfect knots called Aran Jumpers and milk cows while my father partied don't exist in Ireland, up yours ladies of Ireland, where are the pretty working women from Bangladesh who work for basically nothing, making clothes for Irish women and men who would even put my mother to shame. Pretty Indian low caste women..., Phillipino ladies wolf whistle me, I need to be intimidated by interest and subsequently seduced and scared shitless, like every other man I want to party and have fun with someone attractive who loves me, Irish  Pro Choice Wagons need not apply, you hung yourselves you uncaring fuckers, I know full well I'd only end up castrated by you in divorce court I've been educated if you don't come into the relationship with more money than me go home, I paid ladies enough, ladies you ran up an iou educating a smart man and I learned loads, I educated myself, fair is fair, I'm now the prize with a wee beautiful willy who aged like a fine wine. Ask yourself ladies if it wasn't so fucking beautiful why would I have minded it so carefully and played with it and so much not even letting the prettiest ladies near it, even for a blowjob in caser they bit it off out of sheer jealousy and ran away with it, the fucking thing is precious, even more precious than Donkey Dick..., and that is a beautiful culnary delicacy of the Han Dynasty in China, I suggest you go to your local Donkey Sanctury with a Chinese cook and try some, Donkey Dick is precious ask any Donkey,,, ask me :). 

My plan to become richer than Apple Computers is to make a plaster cast of my lovely wee willy so every lady in the world can try out my banana, thank you John Masterson the only one mad enough to make me feel sexy, for the idea, even Brittas Spears as sexy as she was and is was only interested in my interest in her.

 We are all selfish, the boys usually smell better than women anyway even with perfume and prefer bonking ask Fredde Mercury, if you think I'm a pervert Pony ladies Freddie used get homeless men to fight and bugger the winner, I just talk very dirty and do a lot of window shopping, its a pity I can't make a baby with My Fathers Workman too the sex machine.

 Why did God ever invent women, didn't he know men and women have great difficulty getting along, they drive men straight to drink and then call utter gentlemen drunks and the women are all lesbians anyway and fierce hard to get warmed up without a very expensive and rare turbo charged Drilldo which to satisfy the ladies..., like I really want to and fulfill my mission in life..., to satisfy a woman and for premature female ejaculation to become a worldwide pandemic.

I'll reincarnate as one in the next life, this is the mission of every man ladies, it's in the Bible all men shall evolve to an alternate higher form of life, The Black and Decker Turbocharged Drilldo, we shall be worshipped as Gods finally by ladies, Women will fight tooth and nail over us, after billions of years of bad sex the ladies will finally be satisfied, we will become the ladies choice The Cadburys Milk Tray, and they all lived happy ever after, The End. Ladies this will be bigger than Buckaroo.

I may have a few important points to make with his bellowing and looking for an interesting educational lively debate and ideally a shift afterwords with a georgous lady listing to this clown pontificate the inner workings of the universe, believing he has insights into the mind of God because he read the Beano at 5. Thanks Mollys Bar Bweeng and Nead an Iolair for giving this ape, with ants in his anus..., and knickers in a twist..., my true mental health diagnosis..., a platfrom to vent my sexual frustration along with the others in the "One world government in the pub community", the Irish Cowboys and Indians party.

Nerds are talented one trick ponies and usually not self reflective, their Sister or Mother didn't tell me jack shit about female nature they talk in feelings and actions rather than logic and they didn't get along great and nerds didn't go to slumber parties to see how womens minds work, they wanted to but were not invited.

If they got lucky got a chance to play spin the bottle for the shift of a lifetime at the teenage disco that they never forgot and had kisses they never forgot, oh man, I could relive that every night for the rest of my life, nearly as good as being Magic Mike the high class gigolo, logically women expect men to twig them and therefore Nerds are as naive, and gullible as be fuck, for this reason and needed money, they took your stupid corporate job and to learn new technologies that will give them an edge, and are desperately seeking Susan and life opportunites and believe in a happy ever after even if this doesn't really exist on this Earth. 

The best that exists is taking up responsibility and doing the greatest good you can so you can sleep with a clear conscience, the dopamine of impressing yourself in Nerd dom wore out for me at 35 because the women just were not interested even after 4 hours a day exercise to make myself prettier and far fitter than the average lady and fucking up my job in IBM as a result. 

Nerds have used 98% of their intelligence to get world class at their jobs, so they can make a stupid android like the Boston Dynamics robot rather than a baby with their wee willys a far more intelligent natural robot and extension of themselves and their dreams and look after it, Robots don't get angry at being born and their inherited genetics and don't throw tantrums, they think their self made dumb robot  is enough to impress a lady because these stupid ideas impress their own brain mental masturbator and fill it with dopamine like watching Star Trek.

Ladies at very least want a man capable of being a good father, and polite which I'm not unless I really zip it,  a good listener so you can learn from other people who can read between the lines, able to keep his mouth shut which enhances possibility of keeping a life opportunity to ones self and run with it and become an old fashioned millionaire, and maintain a power dynamic, nerds like me love blabber mouthing showing off how smart we are,  I know how not to be a nerd, I still choose to be one but thank you Jordan Peterson for giving me some non autistic perspective, these are things the typical nerd hasn't thought too much about but should.

More about me, I try not to keep secrets about myself, everybody has some skeletons in their closets if widely known would cause aversion to others, a secret can only hurt you if gossiped widely to narrow minded people who damage their own reputations by gossiping too, if you want to hang me by gossiping that is your problem.

 If someone values you less because of them, they are fair weathered friends, show these the road. 

I've made mistakes, I'm a sinner, I'm not being the best version of myself, very few are, and most of those who think they are have twisted values and inflated sense of self importance usually attributed to fame, a stupid talent, winning the genetic lottery, good looks or interest from the opposite sex, power or money, rarely honest hard work as a laborer, serving humanity and God which is seldom appreciated.

I'm critical of myself and everybody else, I can't stop bitching even about God, to those that can accept my many flaws and attempts at constructive criticism and not airbrushing my picture of you, thank you friends & family for hanging on & putting up with me

As Russell Brand would say welcome my awakening Wonders, Apologies if the graphic nature of the rest this Blog Business Card... if it offends. its meant to... that way it will drive away fair weathered friends and boring business associates I DON'T WANT BECAUSE THEY ARE INCAPABLE OF BEING FRIENDS, This for both of us avoids disappointment, so at least I don't have to deal with it later on, its also supposed be funny, that's how Education is done.

 The Blog Business Card is meant to be informative about me and educational, and not a boring blurb, its an x ray view into the important things I know..., my psyche, why I am the way I am..., and my dark side..., my light side..., my nerdy side..., my spiritual side....

The rest of this document contain almost everything I learned in the last 53 years as a nerdy engineer, a sinner and a person who experienced lessons from God and Jesus through psychosis, a man who made mistakes.

I chased skirt like a nerd who wants to procreate with a Genius...,  Funny...,  Scam Artist Saint..., an average lady out of Greek Mythology would want, anything less than 28 out of 10 just doesn't cut it!.... with this fat, 53 year old ,diagnosed schitzofrenic, balding, sexy ( well over sexed ), 3 out of 10 nerd who can,.. or at least used be able to before he killed all his brain cells due to looking at pretty porn and drinking..., program quite well.

 I need to compensate for my weaknesses... thats why the need to be hot.... Every male clown thinks he deserves Catherine Zeta Jones or Jennifer out of Friends.

Please leave comments, awaken this awakening wonder, insults, compliments, and useful information, opinions and balance welcome, on this and other pages on my blogs.

 The blogs are supposed to be a living and improving online documents. If you like what you see and want to do business or make friendship after seeing my warts all the better. I shock a lot of people and am an outlier in popularity due to political fuck ups especially with business colleagues mixing friendship into company politics and pointing out stupidity in how companies are run is not appreciated from low value creative beta males to corporations.

 I learned a lot over my 30 years as a computer professional mostly about how stupid and selfish and delusional corporations and managers are and my own immaturity taking projects to learn interesting technologies doing my best within the boundaries of what the company wanted but knew I wasn't doing anything useful or lasting 2 thirds of the time.

Unfortunately failures are facts software engineering and probably engineering in general. Two thirds of computer projects go nowhere.

 90% of the software that needs to be written is written, rewriting it the 20th time trying to introduce something new won't make it better. Windows is getting worse.

 The only software project left is to make Lt. Cmdr Data and let him code. Github copilot and other GPT3 related technologies are going to replace a lot of jobs including needing a solicitor to write legal contracts, tough shit solicitors you legal arguers get your hands dirty and a real job like a farm labourer and stop turkey plucking in divorce courts, your doing nothing useful just making sure the biggest lying cunt wins.

The best currency is love, banks and accountants and tax advisors are not needed if society and corporations of value could organize itself through love cooperate and not compete, money is lazer pointer following done by government to seduce society behaviour through greed and often despots on both sides are given money from the same source to create more wealth with blood on the streets for the bank lenders and corporations.

Interestingly enough a very rarely used weapon of individuals is bad corporations can be shut down by a class action lawsuit of individuals and their assets redistributed.

 The virus I believe is a population control mechanism and the smoking gun is did Bill Gates, Pfeizer, Johnson and Johnson, the media like the Irish RTE, the WHO the Wuhan Bioweapons Lab and Fauci and others create the vaccine with intentions of population control to avoid wars, is this acceptable behaviour or should it prompt a revolution backlash that these power mongers don't forget too quickly if these people killed millions of unborn babies with vaccines with intentional side effects why should they not be eradicated from the face of the earth for crimes against humanity.

The question is does God always provide enough does he supernaturally make more when needed, collapse of the wavefunction says that the world behaves entirely differently when nobody is looking as a quantum mechanical truth, so it's certainly possible, God always provided enough it seems to at least for me to date as a person in the first world and I got scammed quite a few times by people who possibly needed my money more than me.

 Nobody fools nobody in the long run, and the gullible are genetically that way to give the needy a chance. Everybody is a turkey plucker, I turkey plucked IBM out of 580 euro a day in 2003-2004 and wasn't working very hard, IBM made money from expensive impressive looking fridge size mainframes for banks which could have been replaced by much smaller tech after 1975 if the banks didn't demand redundancy in the technology and accepted more failures and wrote more resilient code and kept backups.

 IBM is still keeping the bluff that Mainframes are needed when an android phone could store all normal level bank transactions for 6 months for the entire world, if IBM sues me he is a statement from an EX IBM BOSS in 1943 with the exception of stupid bitcoin and other stupid scammy sub millisecond trading that is in vogue in financial districts.

The strippers turkey plucked me for 70% of my wages because I wanted my hole, the girls were quite poor and lovely players, the club got a lot of the money unfortunately and I just wanted the women to get it, or at least was going to pay for a look at the prettiest of it, in case I could hit the jackpot.

Even programming and computers is rarely genuinely useful anymore, the programs I could write are written I'm not up to doing cutting edge AI to the point I will out google google  and improve on without a decade of hard work google is that good and by the time my code is written advancements will be made by google and they will stay ahead of me whats the point, there are too many incompatible different computer languages all doing the same job, you now have to relearn computers 50 times because there are too many cooks reinventing crap I already know how to do a different way, unless some interesting engineering revolution occurs which seduces me to try again at the cutting edge of engineering, or I badly need money to keep my car on the road or I need to rare children, I'm bloody retired, no more re inventing wheels.

 I wrote my own contracts and they would not stand up in court because the legal system won't accept them, loyars your days in business are numbered too for trying to be  useless to everyone except yourselves and the best lying bitch in court... do better.

 I made lots of mistakes in life and will continue to make unless I get more discipline and savvy.

More evidence of the Bible being believable is Gods covenant of circumcision, foreskin removal, drastically reduces the spreading of AIDS and other sexually transmitted diseases google it.  Maybe God was populating Heaven with perfect animals when they were sacrificed.

 I'm a stone who was much more upset he didn't get hot stuff at 18 from an ex friends girlfriend than his saintly mother dying of cancer at 45 I sobbed for my mother for 5 minutes I still haven't got over not getting my hole, and hearing out of tune angels my buddy David O'Connor whom I met 5 years later in a gardening course.

I'm no saint, I'm a shit like most honest Pro Choice it's not me whose dying in the womb after doing no wrong people. Before you say babies in the womb feel nothing why do they suck their thumbs after 12 weeks?, don't start me on the consciousness argument. this can be dealt with sharks are cannibals and eat their siblings before they are born. Semen looks conscious under a microscope, it looks like it knows what it's doing. God is in control, the observer has nothing to do with the brain and I'm sure whats going through the unborn being cut up in the wombs mind is what the fuck did I do to deserve this. Ask any child psychologist if injustice is the first developed emotion after pain. Personally I'm convinced a Foetus at 3 weeks can feel pain if it requires brain development which if your spiritual & believe in the internal observer called consciousness it doesn't and at 12 weeks is definitely capable of the emotion of injustice.

I am not a good person, it has been shown to me that if I got the wrong woman pregnant with beer goggles under a examination of conscience during psychosis I would be very tempted to abort my own child. I already readily admitted I wasn't willing to stay married to a stripper after having a child once she reaches 35 because my dick never satisfied her and she is getting old so I will have my revenge for not being considered a high value man to her or maybe I'm just making excuses and plain incapable of taking the responsibility of loving a woman into old age, true love is responsibility.

The highest paid job in New York according to Jobserve.com last year was abortion specialist calling them butchers Doctors is flattery at around $666k a year. They were killing babies a week old outside the womb for a while. The definition of mental illness is killing your own baby to satisfy a temporary pleasure experience not beginning with the end in mind in choosing whom your going to make a baby with and murder it afterwords so Hollywood moguls can eat it or it be used to make youth serum possibly because your worth it. One in two black Africans in New York were killing their babies because black lives don't matter and as perfect a family image he puts out Obama only cares about his own Godless sorry ass from what I can tell and loves himself so much he will drink his own pee according to his talk with Bear Grillis, my question to you is would he drink my White Supremacist Nerd Piddle. 

I don't know Obamas true values but at least Donald Trump claims to believe in God. For all Obamas perfect political politeness nice talk and playing dead with kiddies and sportsman social proof with the ladies, a president should me a man of God, because if you don't believe somebody is watching you or possible punishment for doing wrong, your ethics will be questionable, everybody is a sinner and even Jesus said only God the Father is good, if driven by addiction pleasure or avoiding pain or growing up pains which I hate and have thrown tantrums about arguing I believe with Jesus with an up yours attitude, mine certainly are, and I 99% believe, and have several psychotic episodes where I had statistical proof of Gods existence to 99.99999999999999% but argued down as being a fool by my family and drug dealing psychiatric doctor and nurse who don't believe God would reveal himself in supernaturally stupid ways to me.

 It's in the madness that my best ideas as an engineer occur, I was stone off my rocker when I came up with fundamental a program which found a possible relation between the mass of the proton electron and neutron and the golden ratio. 

Doctors are plucking my inellectual wings keeping me boring and sane and unable to boldly fly where no man has gone before. I will find out if the ideas I have when super high are intellectually valid when I come down. Every village needs a mad fool to give to bored some idiot to talk about. And the mad were allowed to play their kazoos freely on the streets of Stuttgart the were harming nobody. Adam and eve were naked in the Garden of Eden just because women want magic Mike the male gigolo stripper to look at on sex.com doesn't mean that the mad less poetically possessed mad men should not be allowed dangle their wobbly bits.

Gods job is to test you and this means trick you to see where you will pop bad or good. 

Poor Rambo never got his hole the most beautiful Pomenerian in the world, a fellow who used time it perfectly at 3 weeks to bite Yops legs and beat dad in the door into the porch. and chase rats down steel pipes in the barley sheds and bins, the stunner died of a poisoning, probably chasing sheep.

Dogs that jerk off at peoples legs are usually trained by a sexually demented teenager going through puberty, at 21 I did it again and the older dog said don't mess with my toot toot but didn't bite. What I did in my opinion for a highly sexed teenager not getting any was perverted my life low point but no more perverted than anal sex or what farmers do routinely to animals routinely for professional reasons, but in my case it was driven by demented sexual urges and I being a bit of a prude would not consider anal sex any more elegant or less perverted.

Being honest with myself my most demented idea ever was to make a baby with a stripper and divorce so I would not have to take responsibility of raising it with good moral values, after my father and mother working their butt off to raise me well, to no avail!, and me being largely unappreciative especially of my saintly mother. No wonder the women take the counter attack of going pro choice. We are all demented.

I wasted a fortune lusting after pretty strippers and getting intimidated and a bad case of demented egomania kicked in on the very rare occasions things warmed up..., after the we got cookies but you ain't getting any dollops of ham sandwich, doing the idiot when staring into the black hole of responsibility, that said there was a stunning Lithuanian lady in Angels in Cork I met once who made me feel like a little boy, and her black hole of responsibility was a sight to behold for 30 euros unreal.

 The only thing wrong with strip clubs is the addictive love cocaine leads to expectations that are unlikely to end in something responsible happening. It drives men clean bonkers stalking the hot ladies after the clubs close and the average looking women get jealous and claim exploitation because they can't keep up with the Turbo charged Ferraris in the clubs in the bedroom and the strippers have a best before date which expires fast from fast living drinking themselves stupid on Champagne taking Cocaine and smoking. Women do the exact same thing sleeping with Chad and Tyrone in their 20s and usually get a lot more sex than your average looking man. Fuck off feminists you have it way way too good as it is, a Russian Gymnast controls Putin in the Bedroom Women start wars they are too scared to fight in themselves and get men shot, if she closes her legs and Putins children get abducted and a gun is pointed at their heads war over if Putin isn't pig headed and wants his genetics to survive. Women if not raped choose what man has the right to have children and to date I've have no children myself women don't deem me good enough I haven't had enough enthuasism shown by a pretty one to take them seriously and my sister says who introduced me to a few 7 out of 10s who claimed limited interest but could not handle my shit tests said I'm an ugly egomaniac duckling and I aren't getting prettier with time and don't expect to.

The video women need to watch to understand what goes through a mans mind in the strip club by male psychologis,t anthropoligis,t and hedonist funnyman, Diamond David Lee Roth and Eddie Van Halen

Jeff Bezos 38 billion divorce proves money can't buy love, I was stupidly dreaming considering divorce after making the baby with a hottie. so I played with myself instead, there is a possibility I would have grown up once responsibility happened but men whom I consider more responsible than me who failed to meet the grade.

From what I since found out about women lust and marriage are two entirely different animals and unfortunately most people are operating from a place of immature idealistic lust driven from stupid Hollywood romance American Dream values rather than maturity.

 If one looks at a woman lustfully you've committed adultery with her in your heart, and shyness and cowardice are sins which get you put in hell. I was playing the worst cards in the deck playing with myself. I'm a drunken nerd, thankfully ex simp thanks to Jordan Peterson YouTube advice, and insecure self centred shit.

Jesus said if you love me give up your belongings and follow me my yoke is easy and burden light under psychosis God asked me to give away my house and pension under duress of psychosis talking to God I agreeed to give my pension to Heidi Baker Iris Ministries. But to date have no serious intention of doing so due to greed and she not convincing me she is as good as she claims of  She has an orphanage in Pemba Mozambique but she never talked to me via email despite me idolising her giving her a small fortune trying to buy my way into heaven on credit card debt for her claims of raising thousands from the dead and being a religious social media star. She is on 42k a year her husband on 56k according to charitynavigator.org she speaks well on Jesus but is she as good as she says she is, she charges $3k to volunteers and may be running a dog and pony show of fake miracles.

This guy is worse he is on $324k a year an ex night club promoter charity water living in New York with his wife and child and Scott Harrison a good looking man with wife a good story and still possibly a cocaine habit.

Even my hero Linus Torvalds whom I regarded as a hero for giving me good kernel code, I could look at  & learn from has his flaws for not believing in God a closet egomanic with political skill from his father, he fragmented the freebsd community worked hard ripping what he could of Unix off with a team of penguin followers including me and named Unix after himself. He also ripped off bitkeeeper to make git the ultimate free software socialist.

Even Saint Bill Gates seems to be driven to use the virus vaccine for population control if you read between the lines of this Ted 2010 lecture, owing to being scared of Global Warming.

His anti virus obsessions stems from his problems with Windows having viruses he can't tell the difference, the anti virus bomb is going off in his head.

 The Earths Core is cooling, God is in control, Google it  and historical data from weather stations and written tide height data doesn't agree with the NOAA or weather.com owned by the Rothschild illuminati.

Its also alleged that Bill Gates by his personal assistant to have used his Jeffrey Epstein contacts to organize a Nobel Prize for Himself.

Personally a big fear of mine is we might run out of potash for artificial fertilizer in 230 years if God doesn't work a creative miracle like the big bang. A possible idea worth investigating is if the forest fires which burned down houses in California and Australia are potash mines for artificial fertilizer. The potash needs to be mined in tile border outlines to prevent future forest fires from growing trees.

Another idea John Masterson a buddy came up for the likes of https://manna.aero and flying cars is could they drive along pylons like a 2 way street using wireless transformer like charging technology or will gusts of wind just blow the flying cars and amazon drone delivery into the wires killing everyone.

More imperfect billionaires the perfectly imperfect Jeff Bezos is extremely smart and in my opinion one of the most powerful men in the world owning the Washington Post what influence has he over what happens in America. He and Amazon also avoids taxes completely.  That said I'm a total Amazon Junkie. He has a potty for Amazon drivers to pee into so they can make more slave driving schedule deliveries and why not. Genghis Kahn used pee and shit in the saddle which is why he has more offspring than any man in history. Jeff is a damn smart man and you would not think butter would melt in his mouth an unfit nerd in his 30s to seduce banks by looking like a smily happyman banker himself talking about customer service and responsibility with doe deer eyes don't judge a book by its cover, and fighting fit in his 50s.

 Jeffs wife was chosen as she could get him out of a 3rd world prison herself. And the way Amazon slave drives suppliers for unbelievable value which I largely love them but he probably should be in a 3rd world prison for slave driving especially China and Nike Bangladesh close makers who get 3% of the price of your Michael Jordan Air to make them,Nike gives the slave driving mantra of Nike Just Do It a whole new meaning. The only thing Amazon does wrong is some of the stupid hacker electronics have no online manual to read and they don't put url's for the manuals on hacker electronics on the box. Customer service unreal you even beat Jack Ma alibaba.com which wastes a lot of time with what seem to be Chinese spies playing and practicing the art of war doing sabotage on slightly cheaper and more iffy alibaba.com which I love too so cheap they are gone antimoney and one is paying 40% taxes on goods coming from them to offer Germany and the U.S. a chance to compete on price. 

I lost one Job in Cork partially because the Chinese with their cheap electronic point of sales system would not give full instructions on how to use it after buying the system. This is the only thing your doing wrong Amazon well done.

Chinese are at war or at least play war with us, or at very least play games toying with us, they offer better value than anyone, my Huawei phone is dirt cheap and unreal and two years old and smarter than me with google.

 China spy away on me on the phone I don't care hope I provide interesting reading and don't turn the camera on while I'm on sex.com to watch my wee willy unless its for a very pretty Chinese lady who likes European hot stuff spying who wants to call to my place for some fun.

 Who knows European wee willies might be a superstar secrets on Chinese spy TV and give the population controlled sexually repressed Chinese men a sense of hope for their Asian statistically smaller willies.

 

Lust is the fantasy marriage the reality, women want Alpha Fucks and got plenty of my Beta Bucks but a lot less than Jeff Bezos ex Wife. The African Banana men terrify the Western male World, I suppose it pays to walk around Naked and let evoluton and survival of the fittest or at very least the biggest dong take its course. 

Which is why Irish Women to my past horror and life education at student discos seeing seduction going on on the dance floor, love being blown out by African banana..., and most Irish women have a few stories they keep from their future husbands..., claim their hymen broke doing gymnastics or playing tennis whom they marry..., pluck in divorce courts..., and go back for more African banana afterwords, or at very least Chadwick and Tyrone... thats the modern womans life plan, or fantasy life plan of the modern Irish Woman or at least a few of them. I've seen it, lady liars with your knickers on fire, so don't deny it.

 

Bipolar Billionaire Kayne West can't sing, neither can P Diddy, or Jay Z but their bananas keep Beyonce and Kim satisfied, and make the record sales. Kim Kardasians backside made more news last year than a city the size of Dublin getting obliterated in Iraq, yes boys we are that mature and intelligent.

If you read womens literotica, 50 shades of Grey available as pdf online google it, you know women go for P Diddy and Jay Z types this is what they consider high value. Polite vain arseholes who don't give a shit about anyone except their own children blowing out other beautiful prefectly dressed ladies also after them, getting the female sense of herd mentailty competition going, living a life of billionaire dom doing no good for anyone except their children and not giving a shit about anyone except their offspring. This is what women go for.

 Men are sad creatures too but why should anyone not want a beautiful healthy child, looking after your health is a sign of lack of lazyness and having enough intelligence to treat yourself like someone that deserves to be looked after, admittedly one should not judge a book by its cover, niceness and prettyness aren't often in the one person as the looks go up so does vanity.

 

Why should anyone go for mingers???? to and lazy Humpties who won't work a labor job to keep fit or look after themselves happy???, fat ladies you've yourself largely to blame,  why should men want to make unhealthy children??, unfortunately its a game of survival of the fittest, and how could it be different!!!.

 

If one looks after oneself, with good non self destructive mature habits keeping fit and doing an honest days labor, one can make oneself more beautiful without hurting anyone else.

I at least delude myself I was a world class programmer, its all I'm good at along with blogging, but all Ronaldo is only good at is putting a ball in the back of a net and looking good, and Michael Schumacher driving cars.

A local men whose family disrespects me, I asked his sister to marry me in a slightly out of tune letter to the father talking about 14 pints of Stout which I called Fresians that we were going to Drink Together, I think the mistake I made was their nipper danced London Calling at the Fathers House and I acted detached because I didn't hear the song in my head. Also another Daughter Sang, Come on Ye Black in Tans, come and fight me like a man, a song I could not relate to and winked at me, again I acted detached, I didn't appreciate the fairy song till I saw my dog barney dancing to this fighting cats, you always need something to attach to. After I asked the sister to marry me, a girl who worked in the local old folks home, a girl my mother would approve of rather than strippers, she sent a shit tester message back to the matriarchs of the family, the shit testers that get me thrown in psychiatric hospital ball hopping that she threatened to brain me with a hurlley across the brain and I went chicken shit, she obviously knew I jerked off a few times thinking of riding her.

 The fine horseman who now is shit testing me with his brother, got me banished from a local pub for bellowing,  is famous for riding a Saudi oil billonaires horse, and thinks the is better than me, his daughter got me banned from helping in the local old folks home, shitting on me all the way, He ridse fast on level ground, and its the horse doing the running, providing the same to me boring spectacle over and over again in the pub, seducing men addicted men to bet while I drink like an idiot and get thrown out of local pubs for bellowing and talking to him.

The leveller lets see how this famous jockey compares to a monkey running for its life avoiding being eaten by Africans.

Your better than I'll ever be on horses, I can't ride for shit, but pathetic compared to 2 scared monkeys riding without a saddle riding gear or even a bridle.

 Your father was 50 times the man either of us, he made food for the world and looked after my fathers farm in ways my father would not, took responsibility for his family from the age of 14, the arrogant sexy double ham sandwich dealing ruffian who also is intuitive enough to believe in the faeries and is gentleman whose cars are so well looked after they appreciate in value on trade in at local car dealership you rode expensive horses fast showboating, creating a spectacle some love, is it a big deal in the bigger scheme of things? I preferred watching your Father getting his hands dirty doing the MacGyver fixing  a combine it was more educational for this at the time 7 year old Monkey Mechanic. My advice to you is learn what you can from the educator before he is gone, theres more to life than horses or raspberrypi.org. 

 I tried to out google google and was an also ran for the most part but successful too from a money perspective for a time, I'm currently a 3 hit wonder, and My Fathers Workman is the only reason I was interested in any of your selfie taking sisters, I would shag him bareback myself if I was a woman and your mother Anne wasn't in the picture.

 I suppose I didn't make too good an impression dancing with myself continually getting shitfaced playing the vain bored nerd disinterested loner getting drunk getting permanently barred in Fat self important clown in the local club in Mallow waiting for my moment to pull PrettyVain Paula by pulling in a semi interested lady by the backside trying to get Pretty Paula jealous. Men waste lifetimes in discos getting drunk waiting for opportunity, I wasted 40 years.

 Muhammad Ali, Phil Lynott, and Bruce Lee are pushing up daisies but left a legacy.

 I'm always wondering what my legacy will be..., is it worth a shit..., should I concentrate on friends and chillax..., should I farm, I feel good after milking cows to feed my Chinese Amazon slaves, I was ambition obsessed in coding I can still write fairly good code if I put my mind to it but its getting harder and harder to write code that improves on what is already done,I think I'm good at blogging, but perpetually wonder..., why so few comment, am I talking to myself???

 The Chinese occasionally try to sabotage us when we sometimes try to use their products. I've even seen businesses in Europe do this ,500 people in Cork employed in customer support of a software product which cost thousands and has expensive support contracts which has better open source alternatives and all these employees could be replaced by a good blog or an O Reilly Manual. I made an enemy of the rich boss that I went to College with telling him this so I won't say who it is but it isn't that hard to find.

 Michael Jordan a billionaire, idolised for being world class at a non contact combat sport and giving black men stupid ideas of copying him into billionairedom shooting hoops, that said fitness is good and I should play basketball myself. I say, put the I believe I can fly in the ring for a few rounds with a real Hero like Mike Tyson and get him to eat his ear off, Iron Mike is smuggling in Insulin into America from Mexico by carrier pigeon the Genius of the common man better and more primal than even Ali and close on as funny when it comes down to it, who else would eat a mans ear in the ring.

 Putin Shot a Tiger, Tysons tiger should be shown the shooting video over and over and Tyson should be bodygaurd of the next American president and visit the Kremlin with his petty and give Putin the wetties. 

Not as smart as um, he thinks he is.

If your to say popular self image marketing media mogul, who pulled a few fairly brave high class marketing stunts in his time and keeps fit at 70 billionaire Richard Branson little red riding hood Virgin Galactic has done no wrong selling condoms as an athiest, they don't prevent genital warts which cause cervical cancer a sexually transmitted disease that killed more than AIDS in the name of free no strings lust addiction irresponsibility enablers and also latest news says that multiple sclerosis seems to be a sexually transmitted disease also.

Apple Computers a 3 trillion euro company some regard as a more valid religion than christianity logo is Satans proudest moment, when eve bit the Apple Temptation!, and, may be the Mark of thB beast in the book of revelation, with Apple Pay now processing payments may become the worlds most powerful evil bank not allowing money to go to a poor man on the street as the won't own an iPhone in the Bible more here.  The price of the first Apple II was $666.66 the number of the Beast. Is this Gods Bible prophesy or stupid advertising illuminati owned Apple theatre you decide.

China was duped by Apple leading to alibaba.com bargains that there is money in Electronics, Apple make computer jewellery, every computer chip pollutes 10 gallons of water. Apple owes 3 million in unpaid taxes for every employee they employed in Ireland since 1978 and are deemed untouchable as if the greedy fuckers haven't enough cash in their piggy banks.

Africans can't eat electronics even if it has the Apple Logo on it no matter how much they burn it, so the eat monkeys more intelligent than most of them instead judging by the electronics recycling talents depicted in this fine picture us western waster dildos caused, admittedly Africans are smart in that they have only 1/20th the carbon footprint of the West.

 All we need to make now is Lt. Commander Data out of a Boston Dynamics Robot knock off with Google AI and let man & nerd engineers put themselves out of a job. I know an excellent musician who can bullshit Bach who thinks he is obselete because he prefers the tunes made by programs with Artifical intelligence. At the age of 30 I was better than most programmers but came to realize that 66% of software projects fail and there always is someone doing a better job than you for another company. 99% of engineering is irrelevant and just loading the market with alternatives. Musk wants to travel to mars by rocket a thousand year old technology and burn up all Earths fuel, to go to Mars experience dream or take magic mushrooms and come back safely. Area 51 has loads of aliens technology and cavemen were abducted by aliens to mars I suspect.

 It's been obvious since the industrial revolution that man has been putting himself out of work and eating into future earth resources getting fat and lazy unless God does a creative miracle creating more resources or man gets a lot better at recycling currently America recycles 3% of plastic Ireland no better

 Nobody but God the Father can claim to be good, even Jesus admitted there was badness in him, and according to the book of Saint Thomas in the Coptic Bible was a trickster and murderer as a child, who knows.

As Jordan Peterson said you should take responsibility do the highest good and where your talent and the needs of the world coincide there you belong. I spent my career learning impressive skills as a programmer and engineer and didn't put this to great use as others were even better.

 I've been limping on disability payments claiming inability to work justified by drug dealing psychiatric doctors insisting I am ill to line their own pockets owing to schitzofrenic symtoms my underlying problem is God is testing me for immaturity and leading my steps through life for an ultimately greater good possibly as a savvy sinning christian shaman blogger with some life experience that needs to be shared with the general community.

Back to normality, now you've seen my shadow and others, and the shadow in many men who loved Fred Astaire diamonds are a girls best friend at 5 years old because it meant you didn't have to develop character to get the girl. Western women are generally bad eggs too, most people have many flaws. For my 50th birthday in psychiatric hospital faeries danced on the roof proving Primary School Friend, an ex childhood buddy thought me the life lesson I never learned the Beatles money can't buy me love a song I hated because it meant I could not buy the pretty ones I lusted after. 

I also met a sweet old gentleman called John Power who had telekenetic powers I saw a remote control leap into his hands it may even have been a disguised meeting with God the father an interesting name for God and he looked like a young John Masterson and during psychosis I blessed my furniture with Johnson Pledge and what seemed to be miracles happened in my house. According to rip.ie I think the sweet man since died he used sing with a band called Just Friends in Fermoy he was twice married and said marriage was a bad idea he was plucked or that was his side of the story.

 According to the Bible we are all parts of the body of Christ and as well as physical work we can wish each other good pray, or malice witchcraft. Misfortune happened in life to a lot of people who thought they were better than me and when I thought I was better than them the misfortune happened me. Life is a leveller to the end. Even Putin has cancer and lucky boy Steve Jobs died from it possibly from roundup in processed fruit drinks as he died from pancreatic cancer and John Sculley the man that fired him from Apple was a Pepsi marketing genius.

 God is writing an interesting story for all of us and if you notice stupid patterns and concidences synchronicites which are funny but illogical they were meant to happen to give your life a story proving Gods existance, loads of Murphys died when I drank Murphys including my Aunt Margo Murphy over a 3 year period and I didn't cut back much. I might yet be paying for this sin in not believing the science pattern that should have triggered my brains pattern matching machine as legitimate voodoo science, science is all about spotting patterns. Just don't try to prophesy from the patterns look at your life story for silly funny concidences you will find them, this is some of the basics of Shamanism.  

The meaning of Judge not lest you be Judged is you will be judged by God to the standards you judge other people, and I certainly judge people especially women by how pretty their cover is, many do!

What stupid animal except man would spend till the age of 18 learning to count to work in a bank animals know banks are an utterly unnecessary human custom collecting shiny coins like magpies when all the food is gone they will realise you can't eat money.

Bitcoin even stupider at its peak a useless Maths calculation with proof of work, using worldwide as much electricity as Sweden contributing greatly CO2 emissions was worth $65k dollars because everybody believed a bigger fool would buy and man proud of his intelligence for coming up with such mathematical unloving stupidity as a currency and us bombing Chernobyl as if the world hasn't enough problems and oil wells at war and killing people.

The currency in Heaven is Love, it should be on Earth too, that way the world isn't controlled by bad rich people using a magpie concept of goodwill and weapons to control us. Look at the National Debt of Nations and see how big the problem is if your country I owe you is called back. 

Can we do better, yes we can, if we be BOLD and we love our neighbour as ourselves, as, the Bible suggests, we can watch our own back too, and, if we trust Jesus who paid our karmic debt, we get even more help from Heaven, Love God as he loves you,  most don't make it easy for Him. 

Jesus asked God the father for responsibility which as Jordan Peterson knows is why Jesus is basically happy and we will be too if we take up our load and follow him.

Being in someone's prayers is the purest form of true love, prayer being hopes spoken out loud with feeling for the person.

Fulfilling others dreams is a road to happiness, and, being remembered for the right reasons.

Read John 3:16 in the Bible and the rest of it, the reason is subtle God likes when you do this. God has a great sense of humor, we usually don't, the reason Jesus is called Holy like Padre Pio is cos like Jesus he has Holy hands.

1 Corinthians 12:27, We are all part of the body of Christ ( the cosmic consciousness ) separated into spiritual beings having a human existence for evaluation in a challenging imperfect environment, so God can figure out the good and bad bits of himself, he is preening himself, it is obvious that parts of God sinning and acting against Gods best interest have to be disgarded somehow, in the souls life review afterwords as nearly all full near death experiences talk about, keeping as much as he can of the good in Heaven. You already know who the worst part of God is.

There is a cosmic consciousness this is obvious, unless you are a Solopotist, believing everyone else is a figment of your beautiful imagination, which is unfair, or even Daniel C. Dennett, the fool, or wind up artist, selling books believing that consciousness was a figment of mans imagination. Jesus is your conscience, Jesus is Love.

Love is a substance that can be detected by Water Crystals. and, Empaths.

This is absent in Hell as everyone is self absorbed, and God the father is the power that creates Love, the Holy Spirit the doer, and Jesus the best part of God that sacrificed himself to pay karmic debt and prove his love by dying for us sacrifice, and, taking responsibility and needs to be done for imperfect people like us and setting an example of what love is. Love is not lust, lust is destructive as when people age they fall out, begin with the end in mind in all relationships otherwise heartbreak occurs.

Like everybody else I'm trying to get to know myself, Jordan Peterson YouTube the worlds good father figure is valuable especially to young men in this regard, others know your flaws, you usually don't, we all in some way, if held to the ideals of the Bible all but even the most honest are flawed and occasionally act like nobody's watching, God is.

Try to align your values to Gods values, and, align your actions to your values, find where the needs of the world and your talents intersect, aim for the highest possible good, take responsibility it's the only route to happiness in this fallen World, begin with the end in mind, in everything, especially sex, which should be considered Marriage if responsible.

Things Jesus & I care about this is a bit of a rant but I hope you find some gems in it: Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven, Love,...Goodwill,..., & doing what God the Father wants on Earth be done here,..... money only allows people control each other, money is the root of all evil, and makes a rich investor briber culture for those lending to central banks ....love should be the currency, websites to organise help for voluntary projects should be organised in every country, websites about what people care about should be set up, what skills they are willing to volunteer with, meidheals should be organised in Ireland more, homes for the poor,.... planning experts to get around council bullshit... should be involved with charities involved in housing and these people should get to know details on county council websites,... addicts get off addictions they are poisons and allow exploitation of otherwise good people, people difficult to insure in cars should join boy racers group kitties with friends to pay out instead of insurance in big enough groups to cover accidents, ...every addict should join alcoholics anonymous,... learn from each others horror stories about addictions,..., lust is like cocaine on the brain,.... the bible says looking at a woman lustfully you commit adultery with her in your heart,... this is a poison addiction & leads to children being aborted or not looked after once the woman isn't as attractive after pregnancy,... its awful,...,  bad men like I was but am recovering from are called simps and perverts for a reason,... addictions are caused by sin and stupidity before you realised better, ....every 6 year old watches 300 hours of Jesus oriented Jordan Peterson,.... and his relationship based advising children just before puberty about relationships,... that simps at a young age learn diamonds are a girls best friend is a consumerism Hollywood lie to sell hard transparent coal that costs a fortune and burns in a fire for diamond sellers attracting magpie rich simps,..., sensible weddings should have little to do with the price of the wedding ring,.... they also should watch School of Life Romanticism,,... as, if you make a child, the partnet won't be as pretty at 70, so  find someone with a beautiful heart,... this lasts forever,.... that people learn that pleasure is usually a sin, so don't piss on Jesus's blue swede shoes, that's how Jesus feels, sin is disrespect, one should fear a good Judge and think about the amount of times you pissed on Jesus's shoes and repent,... men niave about women should watch Alexander Grace around Puberty,... and,.. stay away from pick up artistry except for education entertainment,... it leads to abortions and STDs,... don't drink and try it,... that people learn that Cervical Cancer is an STD caused by Genital Warts,... and, not stopped by condoms,.. so don't have sex until married and sure you want this person,... check each other out naked before marriage,... to see if ye turn each other on,... Jesus will accept this once anyway,... if not fast 2 days a week if overweight,.. as,.. the Bible advises & do exercise,... get angry at yourself poor went hungry because you ate too much,.. and did no exercise,... its easier to stay fit than get fit it's a habit,.. Jesus fasted for 40 days in the desert on a diet of insects and wild berries,... if your Coca Coca  yourself that your problem,... advertisements are usually consumerism lies,... Americas worst sin, Fast Food with bad additives & Guinness is not good for you unless you've an Iron Deficiency, & causes Beer Bellies if drunk to excess,... its burnt barley water that's expensive,... and the Irish Pub Staple with entertaining advertisments,... Stay away from Sugar, Bread and too much High Calorie fruit drinks,... like Orange Juice,  blend fruit drinks in a mug with a stick blender dilute  with hot water and brush teeth afterwords,..., beetroot smoothies are georgous, Beetroot, milk, orange Juice, milk, banana, Avocado Apple, Carrot, Greens, Seeds, add what fruit and veg you have in the fridge,.. stick blend, 600 watt blenders with mugs 20 euro Amazon,... Whiskey is better than Rat Poison blood thinners,... doctors which diagnose this are doing witchcraft on patients,... better can be done than chaemo and radiotherapy for cancer,... try jesus rather than spending half a million of wasted money on hope,... learn to pray,.. & if your right with God repent forgive be non Judgemental, do Byron Katie YouTube forgiveness technique you will go to Heaven,....  Dentists who pull too many teeth from men or leave spinach marks on teeth make men ugly,... don't pull more than absolutely necessary,... titanium teeth are too expensive,.... engineers do better,... and careless pulling of competitions teeth in the market for women to make them ugly is grounds for law cases, Tyson only bit holyfields ear in a life or death situation, dentists do worse and people pay them big money, get teeth clean by dental nurses,... its great every 6 months. Irelands ambulance chasers should be cracked down & Judges who made bad judgements counter sued,...,... Ireland country has gone overkill on safety,.... every mother thinks every man and priest is a child molestor,.... nobody visits nobody anymore we are worse than Germany because we are too rich,..., In Ireland Carpooling isn't allowed and a fuel shortage & claimed global warming problems,... we think we are rich,.. Ireland has a 250 billion debt in Ireland owed by the central bank,.. 45000 euro for every man woman and child as of 2022,.. we think we are stinking rich,.. we are fat and lazy depending on the third world for clothes, & technology miracles,... we lost the skills of repairing our own garments, or repairing our own electronics,... watch Ghana Toxic YouTube to see where our electronics gets dumped and 10 gallons of water polluted to make every silicon chip,... China should make more of its own food rather than too cheap electronics,... we selfish rich and lazy because we have an I owe you,...  Congo in Africa owe 5 billion to rich investors & could buy Ireland out,... if the central bank can declare lack of investor confidence in Ireland, and cause lots of inflation,... Japan is the worlds poorest country by per capita national debt,.. You would not think it